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Words to live by..

2012-01-22T21:53:00.000-08:00

I have come across these words and I am inspired.

"We got to believe in the power of faith and believing. Believe in fantasy for it helps you dream. Believe in fairy tales for they teach you what is real. Believe in great beginnings and happy endings even when they don’t always happen, you still got to hope they do. Believe when someone says you’re gifted for it makes you reflect on what you do with that gift. Believe that life is good even when there are trials and tribulations for life is as good as you make it out to be. Believe that you have choices for they help you choose your destiny. Believe in your gut. Believe in your instincts. Believe in your intuition. Most of all believe in God and yourself and then go out there and do it."

"Don’t be too worked up that people hate you. Sometimes, deep down they either wish that they were you or they wish they have what you have. If you know you’re a good person and sincere in whatever you do and that your conscience is clear, let their feelings of hatred pass you by. The cream always rises to the top anyway. Just be truthful and honest and don’t abuse your looks to get ahead. Stay sincere."

"Finally, who says pretty girls can’t be good, kind, beautiful and intelligent? They can with many more endearing qualities. And you’re just among many I’ve met. But in all honesty, in my eyes, anybody who is good, kind, intelligent, sincere…. are already very pretty. How you look to other people is not as important as how you feel about yourself. Don’t say “I hate being pretty. Say instead, “thank God, I’m pretty.” Because we all are, in our own little ways."

"When we truly understand that we do not actually own anything, everything is borrowed and temporary... then we are less disappointed when we lose something or when we do not get what we want. We are all just parts of a whole – systems of consciousness all interconnected. Just as the music does not belong to the flute or the wind to the sky or our hearts to our body"

"Sometimes, you gotta take the driver's seat. Be your own hero. Successful people are always doing things. They never stop working. They keep moving forward. They make mistakes. But they never give up."

"The key word is LOVE! You have to get up in the morning and do something you love, something you live for, something you can't go a day without thinking about.... Then you'd feel that life is certainly worth living and fighting for."

A very realistic point of view from a woman who is not afraid to speak the truth. Like her Facebook page at Rita Zahara and be inspired like me :)

The day I dance in front of 2,000 people.

2012-01-22T20:11:00.000-08:00

I am not a show-girl. I don't sing. I don't dance. I don't act. I don't have anything to showcase for everyone to see. All I have is a confidence to try at least once in a lifetime. But on this one special event - I danced.

For the love of HR team, I was able to say "yes" to an invitation to be part of the production number on our SBC 60th Christmas Party Celebration held last December 3 at World Trade Center. We were to open the event in what is like an ASAP/Party Pilipinas Opening Number.

Ladies and gentlemen, It was indeed an ecstatic feeling! I am thankful that it all went well and the congratulatory appreciation was overwhelming. I will never do this often though, but who knows.. ;)

Make A Difference

2012-01-22T19:43:00.000-08:00

This 2012, I will make a difference.

I will take risks.

I will be grateful for everything and for everyone.

I will never stop pursuing on my goals.

I will. I will. I will.

2011 - A year of molding KHEN

2011-12-28T03:40:00.000-08:00

2011. Year two thousand eleven.

It was indeed a bring-it-on year for me. It was challenging - a year of sadness, of starting all over again, of finally moving forward and of discovering that real happiness can be found within myself and with people by sharing it wholeheartedly.

I instantly wanted to live everyday. Eager to wake up while guessing what will this day contribute for being the mature girl I never thought would soon take place. It was a year of growing up. To discover that I can be in places with my skills and two feet made me realize I CAN REALLY BE INDEPENDENT. I am on my way to facing the world.

I spent the year re-uniting with lost friends. I was blessed with new friends. I got what I give out - LOVE.

I am a BETTER me. And I owe it all to you....

Summer in November!

2011-12-04T00:45:00.001-08:00

November seems like a knock in the door of December.. And yes, I am all knocked down on my weekdays and weekends..

Sis Kara's Birthday Bash at Alfonso Cafe, Makati

Tita Cora's (Bestfriend's mom) birthday celebration at Volet's Resort, Cavite

Good life. Lots of love ;')

I'll tell you soon about my RAMPAGE (The Security Bank Christmas Party) experiences - the dancing and the fashion :)

FRIENDS

2011-11-11T02:58:00.001-08:00

Last Tuesday, my heart is so much filled with happiness after receiving continuous calls from different friends - friends who barely knew each other! I SWEAR! Di ako napagod, I found myself THANKFUL that made me post this.

I am proud to have friends from everywhere..

My friends in highschool = classmates turned friends in and outside school.

My college friends - From UP Math Physics Society to being alumni.

My blocmates - turned to be my super friends called Majajamans!!!

My Security Bank Friends - from Officemates to just being always there on my side through successes and failures..

My friends I met along the way - from strangers to being so friends - either from church, a friend's girlfriend and a friend's friend..

My BESTFRIENDS - the friends I am confident I have with - forever! - My bestfriend since highschool (Eunique), My bestfriend from work (Cristelle), and my sister and bestfriend in one (Kenipearl).

Words couldn't contain how grateful and thankful I am that I have you all.. Thank you Lord!

"Although I am deeply grateful to a great many people, I forgo the temptation of naming them for fear that I might slight any by omission.
-Theodore Bikel "

One day - FINALLY

2011-10-15T13:23:00.000-07:00

Random Thoughts.

One day I'll say "FINALLY."

Elementary. I was raised with a strict family. One that you should be home by 6pm otherwise you'll receive a lot of sermon.

Highschool. When I am not yet home by 7pm, they will fetch me to school or to my bestfriend's house. Those were the times where cellphones were not necessary for every household.

College. These were the days when freedom was given especially during my senior years. But I was still a student by heart - studying with friends, study and study..

And now.. While mom is working abroad and I am here, I swear to God I miss her. If she is just patient enough while I am teaching her to use the internet, it might have been easier, but then she is not allowed to use computers since she is working 24/7 there. Mom always asked the condition of my "heart". I always answered that mine was still mine.

That's it. I know how I would love to makeher feel my love while she is there. I wanted to cuddle her enough to thank her for all the support and love she was giving me. And since she is there and I am becoming older, I know what she meant by always checking my status.

She wants me to find him. And as much as I wanted to finally meet him, I know that God will give him on the right time.

Yes, mom always wanted to finally meet the person who will take her place in taking care of me while both of us are becoming older.I pray that our prayers will be answered when God was done preparing him to be the BEST.

Finally, in God's time, I will come home with enthusiasm knowing someone's waiting for me to come home, loves to listen about how my day went, monitors my whereabouts, and would simply love me faithfully. But until that day, my mom's love is uncomparable beyond every human love.

Awesome Jha at 23!

2011-10-10T16:51:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Awesome Jha!

Truly an awesome 'big' girl from inside and out.

I've known this lady way back February 2011 but before that, I knew she was my friend long-time girlfriend but it was just this year that I finally met her.

I know it's not that comfortable for a girlfriend to meet her boyfriend's friends and vice-versa but for Jha it was just as comfortable as being with her friends too. Her trust is easily given so who won't love this girl?

I love you Jha! I adore everything about you from being honest to being funny, to being caring to being truly dependable to being the always-on-the-go adventurer to being the best adviser to being the best of the beckys and the awesomeness.

No wonder a lot of people love you and Santy is just so lucky having you.

Tama si Santy, you'll do everything for the one you love. And just so you remember, we love you!

Dear Future

2011-10-08T00:13:00.000-07:00

Somewhere, someday, I keep my Faith believing that this heart will love again..

My faith is stronger than ever, I know God has someone in store for me, be it near or far. I believe that prayers will always be answered just like before. Maybe God has found someone I deserve more and who needed me more than anyone else.

Dear future boyfriend,

I don't say I am perfect but I'll say I'm worth it. And you'll be worth every love in the world.You don't have to call me everyday or even talk to me 24/7, but I do need a text here and there. I'd appreciate you calling me before you go to bed or even texting me before you fall asleep, because I do want to know how your day went and what's on your mind. I am a fan of romantic dates and surprises. I don't need to be with your friends when you have a group meetings or what,I just would like them to know I exist. I am a devotee of complete family. I don't need us to be PDA lovers, but I would appreciate having your cute little ways of endearment to me. I don't need you to tell me everything must be corrected in me because at the very least by choosing me I believe you love me for who I am. I want you to be there when I'm sick, because love cures the world. And I am willing to take care you when you had sick or just plain bad trip to anything else. I want you to be my best friend too.

And you don't have to worry about me thinking that our relationship will last for ever and ever and ever, etc. because I know things can change, either for the best or the worst. But just so you know, if we don't work out, you'll still be in my memory.

I don't know when we'll meet or when we'll be dating, but for whoever you are you now know a bit about me. Treat me right.

STOP CHILD ABUSE

2011-10-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

I am one of the people who support the "NO TO CHILD ABUSEMENT" movement.

Although I was not an official member of any organization, my heart for children is soft. I remember one time my boss once asked me: "Khen, why were you afraid to answer complaints? Why can't you handle people who complained a lot and are so fierce?" Silence was my answer. I said nothing. Instead, I just burst into tears.

Looking back to that scenario, I had an answer now. The answer pops out while I am on my way home. I saw this boy helping his dad for their jeepney. He is acting as the conductor. Suddenly his dad punches him when he didn't notice somebody giving him the fare. The reason for punching is so simple. I was hurt by the fact that a lot of people have seen this and this decreases the boy's ego.

I hate to see battered children. I hate to see children who were punished publicly - shouted, punched, etc.. I hate to see children who beg down and cry uncontrollably just to make his parents forgive him for some immature reason. I hate them not because I was on their position before but maybe because I was never was. Eversince I was a child my mom and my relatives never made their hands hard on mine. They never shouted on me so loud amidst the crowd. But they did on some people close to my heart. That makes it unfair for them. If I could take the pain, I am always willing to take the blame especially when it's mine.

I pray that parents will treat children on a very mature caring way. I pray for all children's guardian too to do the same. I believe, whatever you sow to children's heart, it will grow. And eventually, it will mold their future. Please let all children enjoy their time.

2011-09-16T20:12:00.000-07:00

If it makes your heart smile..you know you're in the right place. Stop & Stay! ♥

I don't know how it happens but I think prayer made it work!

Faith never goes away. No matter how many times you get hurt, believe that there's no room for sadness. You may back-out from falling in, and yet Someone reminded you not to be afraid.

From various trend:
"God protects you from what isn't best for you. Believe, when something GOOD goes, something BETTER is coming!"

I am happy now. Happily inspired.. And I thank you for my 'goodmorning's' and 'goodnight's'.
And, every day I am praying for you..

And my heart was singing joyfully:
"Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away. Beating like a drum and it's coming your way."

.....Admirable are the people who have the courage to start all over again.Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere..

A woman's heart shall be handled with care..

2011-08-29T22:20:00.000-07:00

Have you ever come to the point where every morning you wake up, you always remember the day you wish did not happen? You can’t do anything anymore to prove your worth. You can’t even fight back and defend yourself because you know you’ll lose.

That’s the time of the day that I wanted to get back and keeps chasing me every time I woke up. That was the time I let myself down, deeper than the grounds. The time I proved I am a martyr of love.

But then the future is so great. It allows oneself to rise from the ground and prove their worth. These are still experiences. These are still lessons.

Now I have learned to stop loving too much especially when you know that person really well. All that I have known about him vanishes after the thought comes back to me. Yes, I proved myself inferior to you but that does not mean it will always be like that. Someday, everyone reaps what they sow. It happens to many, it will happen to you.

Dear, I don't know you anymore..

Of Pleasure and Pain

2011-08-11T19:37:00.000-07:00

Just when I am about to shut the laptop down, I have come across this post that hit me to the core. Let me share with you a repost.

I want to thank you for breaking my heart. I’ve realized things about myself that I would have never seen otherwise. I lost myself in you. I lost what I wanted from life and who I wanted to be because I cared so much for you. You and the plans we had became more important to me than anything else. I became so consumed in you that I forgot how strong I am. I lost some of my strength, actually. But now I’ve found it again.

The pain that I’ve been through has made me a different person. A better person. A wiser and far more understanding person. I began to base the quality of my life off of the expectations I had for us. When that fell through, I felt empty; worthless. I lost all the worth I thought I had in my life because it was entirely invested in you.

I never want to be that person again. And I never will be. That is all thanks to you for breaking me down so far that I had no choice but to rebuild myself based on me. What I want, how I want to live. How I will live, how I am living. Thanks to you, I crave adventure. I will never settle. And I will always put myself first. What you did felt so wrong and the way you handled it was so wrong but it was exactly what I needed.

Thank you for being heartless. For being ruthless. For being a person I neverever thought you could be. Thank you for not showing me any mercy. Thank you for not calling when you said you would. Thank you for showing me your true colors. Without them, I would still blindly trust people. I would still believe that if you are good to someone, they’ll be good to you. I would still believe that bad things happen to good people but they’ll never happen to me.

You broke me down to the most bare, basic and raw human state. There was nothing left for me to do but face myself and how I look at the world. Its not a beautiful place and you’ve made me me realize how terrible it can be. Because of you, I see beauty in life because I choose to. Before, I was naive. I saw beauty only because I couldn’t see the pain. Now I’m learning to see beauty despite seeing the pain. I choose to be the way I am and for that, I am so grateful.

You’ve been a part of my life that I’ll never forget. The perfect combination of pleasure and pain. You’ve changed who I am on a very basic level and I’m better for it.

I hope you find what you’re needing, too.

have we met?

2011-07-31T09:29:00.000-07:00

I've been searching on almost every part of the town just to find a place where you finally meet me,

On my search and indecisive plans, I find myself looking at the mirror.

The place is nowhere in town, I have tried looking for it day and night.

Or maybe the place doesn't exist, then I have to be sad.

I may spend time gaining more friends - giving my numbers to those asking (with no hesitation), party all night, dance until I fell asleep, drink and drink and be drunk. But I don't like you to meet me on those kind of occasions. If you did, you might not know me truly..

I'd like you to meet me from the history. A place we can never get back but can be the foundation of what we will become in the future. For there, I am relieve that you've known me as me - not the drinker nor the party-go-girl but a woman who lives with meaning and purpose.

My dream is to meet you. And you are the person God prepared for me.

Limitless

2011-07-28T10:20:00.000-07:00

You can't avoid pain, but when you write it down, you will feel better.

Pain is inevitable. When it hurts, it hurts no matter how hard you tried to hide them. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to love unconditionally and I ask for forgiveness if I was not good on keeping it.

One day in your life, you will realize that not everything has a happy ending. The once-thought of a happily ever after suddenly met its own accident/ending. Life is never constant. But people can't take yourself away from you.

According to Mathematical equation where n=no. of years. If you spend your life for n years to someone, they belong to your 1/n. Limit of 1/n as n goes to infinity becomes 0. (i.e if n=1,2,3,4,... then 1/n = 1/1, 1/2, 1/3,...,1/n = 0).

When people get tired, love remains but hope vanishes, hatred appears but forgiveness re-appeals.

Have a goodnight everyone! Here's a wink from your UP Mathematician ^,*

Anything for you..

2011-07-19T08:58:00.000-07:00

Just received my month-long awaited hug. It already meant a lot..

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don’t care and I don’t need you
And though you’ll never see me cryin’
You know inside I feel like dying
And I’d do anything for you
In spite of it all
I’ve learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don’t you ever think that I don’t love you
That for one minute I forgot you

Learning LOVE.

2011-01-21T21:55:00.000-08:00

All of what you can read for this entry are all excerpt from two books.

By the river Piedra, I sat down and wept by Paulo Coelho.

Tuesdays with Morrie

LIVE ON LESS, AND DELIGHT IN IT.
There are two ways to get enough; one is to continue to accumulate more and more. The other is to desire less.

I believe that simplicity is having the time and space to embrace what is most important to you.

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1. By the river Piedra, I sat down and wept.

Break the glass, please - and free us from all these damned rules from needing to find an explanation for everything, from doing only what others approve of.

But love is much like a dam; if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the whole structure an soon no one will be able to control the force of the current.

For when those walls come down, then love takes over, and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn’t even matter whether we keep the loved one at our side. To love is to lose control.

Love is a trap. When it appears, we see only its light, not its shadows.

_____________________________________

2. Tuesdays with Morrie

In real life, love has to be possible. Even if it is not returned right away, love can only survive when the hope exists that you will be able to win over the person you desire.

The wise are wise only because they love. And the foolish are foolish only because they think they can understand love.

>>Tension of opposites.
“Have I told you about the tension of opposites?” he says.
The tension of opposites?
“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”
“A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.”
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
“A wrestling match.” He laughs. “Yes, you could describe life that way.”
So which sides wins, I ask?
“Which side wins?”
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
“Love wins. Love always wins.”

The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and let it come in.
Love is the only rational act.
Sometime you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too – even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.

Why doesn’t he want to see me?
My old professor sighed. “There is no formula to relationships. They have to be negotiated in loving ways, with room for both parties, what they want and what they need, what they can do and what their life is like.”
“In business, people negotiate to win. They negotiate to get what they want. Maybe you’re too used to that. Love is different. Love is when you are concerned about someone else’s situation as you are about your own.”

//I am just like everyone else who listens to their heart; a person who is enchanted by the mystery of life. Who is open to miracles, who experiences joy and enthusiasm for what they do.
All I was afraid of was saying good-bye.

CSG Bonding and ECS Despedida Party

2010-07-16T20:59:00.000-07:00

Let me share with you my first ever outing with my co-employees and friend at Security Bank.

The Corporate Services Group – General Services Division, Property Management Division, Insurance Services unit and the group where I belong Human Resources Development Division.

Sa super excited ko with my friend Cristelle, I really pray na it will be a good day. Good thing Law of Attraction really works. I really had fun.. Although I didn’t bring my cam since nasira ang battery ko. At 0 pesos spent, we all had fun.. Relaxation and happiness in one. Thank you Lord

..But at the same time it's our Group Head/Senior Vice President Despedida Day as she moves to another professional advancement.. I'm gonna miss her.. Let me share with you her "Thank you Message" for us:

"Subject: FOR CSG FAMILY

Loving a job is like loving a person. You might be infatuated in the beginning, but “loving” long-term is a decision you make.

Don’t work for happiness, work for excellence.

The happiness will follow from a job excellently done.

You give your best not because you need to impress people. You give your best because that’s the only way to enjoy your work.

Always do more than you are paid for, and one day you will be paid for more than you do.

Gandang Umaga!

-EVYLENE C. SISON "

and I quote again.. "Always do more than you are paid for, and one day you will be paid for more than you do."

Tama!

I am for Bro. Eddie!

2010-04-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

2010-04-09T02:18:00.000-07:00

I guess it's almost a year. And I forgot my password, reason for me to request for another. I guess it's hard maintaining multiple accounts. Multiply becomes an album for my year-ago photos already.

Janice got baby already. Welcome Baby KC!

4 years ago, I was up telling stories about college life.
2 years ago, I was up telling stories about fear of after graduation journey.
That same year I told myself, I'll never stop writing through my blog.

I'm writing for myself anyway. It's a bonus when somebody draws inspiration to what you are writing.

CSG RF's complete lunch at North Park

I've been working for almost 1 year and 5 months already. I never stop thanking God for his unending shower of blessings.
Almost everyone experience the same as time passes, praying for something and something after something.
I'm like that admittably and I never stop thanking that He's like that too - answered prayers after one has been answered. And it's a great bonus again when he answered them all at once. Overflowing..

My 2 consecutive long weekends

2009-09-01T04:20:00.000-07:00

Thank you holidays! I have the chance to meet my so love college friends again..

For the first long weekend

met at Ayala
went to Janis' house
stopped at Rockwell
ate at California
was so happy to go home

And the 2nd long weekend..

met w/ my Mathphy orgmates at Megamall.. From 2-4pm.. I arrived at 3pm! yehey!=)
planned to watch movie but there was nothing good that's horror
ended up standing on the ice.. It's Ice Skating last day of operation at megamall
ate at Jollibee
bruised but perfectly happy

And I'm turning 22!

2009-05-23T00:47:00.000-07:00

4 days from now, I'll be turning 22. And it has been a 22 years of educational experience I cherished. And still more years to discover and learn..

And for the last 22 years, every 27th day of May, I never stopped Thanking God and of course every one. Posting every one I would like to thank may take my whole life to write about them, so let me just mention some of the few.

At the top, I want to thank God for every second of my life He never fails to be there. For His Love that was my top and foremost reason why I am still alive.. I wish to renew my faith and make it even stronger for this another year He gave..

Secondly, for my Mama. My life wouldn't be existing now if not because of an angel that God chosen to take care of me. My mama never fails to take care of me even when I finished college, had work and was enjoying all by myself. She is simply amazing around the world. I wish to be able to repay her starting this year and for the next years..

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

AND MORE HAPPIER DAYS TO COME!

My Graduation Day..

2009-05-02T03:06:00.000-07:00

April 24, 2009

UP BAGUIO's Graduation Day

Convention Center

Baguio City, Philippines

Indeed.

THE BS MATH 2004 during Rehearsal

u_uel, mc, cha and me
with my so-loved friends during Graduation

The people I love the most were present too.

Congratulations Everyone!

Congratulations to me..

I LOVE COLLEGE!

I LOVE UP!

REDBOX w/ my CompenBen Family

2009-04-20T04:36:00.000-07:00

Reward ourselves after too many HR records to maintain, salaries kept confidential, Resigned employees being cleared out, Loans processed, Trainings recorded, and employees served..

After everything, we're complete, shouted out pains and consistently being happy this whole friday night!

A blessed Sunday!

2009-02-21T22:38:00.000-08:00

I miss posting..

Way back to College, I never missed checking my site and made sure that I posted everything. If I can't post anything, at least I think of something to post. That's what I love doing to watch the time running as I wait for my Graduation day and vacation to come.

So let me post some random things.

1. I realized, nothing beats School eventhoughyou have to go to work and do your own earnings already. My God nothing changed, I still can't save.

2. I realized I understood Zy when she starts teaching. Every working person looks for rest and the best way to do it is to have fun. Although, I want to take the whole weekend to take a rest, I chose to have fun and see a different environment.

3. Independence needs a courageous person. Living independently needs a bigger decision behind a strong person.

4. I've learned that a moody person has a serious hurting feeling behind him. You can't easily change mood if you don't hide something bad within you. It's not a character, it's a sickness. So beware of changing moods..

5. I've learned that above all thing the Lord never ceases to open the heaven for everyone and to share His overflowing blessings..

Have a blessed Sunday everyone!

KNOCK! KNOCK!

2009-01-09T04:00:00.000-08:00

Happy 2009!!!

Since I can't make any entries. I choose to post photos last Year and how vacation makes me want it for long..

The SECURITY BANK CORPORATION Christmas Party at Silver City

Tarlac Escapade with the Ventura Boys=,)

Tito Rey's Wedding

And the event of the year.. Tita Len & Tito Ranel's Wedding..

1st week @ the 1st JOB

2008-11-21T03:54:00.000-08:00

I feel super inferior from my 1st week at the job or maybe as long as I'm still a probie in work.
Just when I thought to not share my feelings about my 1st week at work, unexpectedly my officemates shared their thoughts also with me during their 1st days at work. WE ALL WANT TO RESIGN at first but they advised me that "ganyan talaga pag first kala mo wala kang alam sa work mo ganun pero as time goes masasanay ka din." and then words from Ms. Trina came back.. Learn your work and love it.

And yes all went successful even when I hate to feel inferior. I thank God for giving me strength to face those who make me feel I'm no one. I will prove them I'm better in God's time. Right now God would want me to learn how to be mature enough to face people and situations like this. The problem is I can't really apply my course at my job but I DON"T CARE. So I hate people asking me why I'm in my work if besides my course is not suitable with it. I CHOSE TO ACCEPT THE WORK. That's it. And the thought that I'm HIRED, would you still think that I'm NOT FIT TO WORK FOR MY JOB? I believed more with the manager who interviewed me lastly.

I can't wait to have my own desk on the start of November anyway=,)

So Here I Am Again..

2008-11-14T00:05:00.000-08:00

I'm back, after a not so much sembreak or vacation but a job hunting experience after I graduated this October.

Anyways the experience wasn't that fun it's the processing of requirements that excites me the most. The interviews cause me nervous breakdown every before another one. I couldn't expect it would be that long process but it's all worth the wait and trust to God. Words I love during interviews are "we" and "endorsing." The initial exam challenges me every start of the Application.

There were times I want to give up. I cried too hard one night with Jayson and tell him I feel disappointed about the long process of applying. And all he did after was to sing me the song "God will make a way.." And after that night every before interview that I'll be having I was singing that song. And God moves in His majestic ways. Thank You Jesus.

On Monday, I'll start working already in the place where I dream to work since I was a kid - in the bank. And all these things wouldn't be possible without God.

NOTE TO THE READER

2008-10-05T21:05:00.000-07:00

This isn't another history..

2008-10-05T20:49:00.000-07:00

My heart is beating fast every time I become aware of the time.
I have only one week for this semester.
One week for my hopefully last semester.
Only one week to prove I’m good.
One week to prove I’ve been better.

I was in third year high school when I first slept for three hours because I worked on my religion project the whole night. I didn’t feel good after.
I have been only allowed thrice to sleep in a friends’ house. It’s hard asking for permission, mom would always tell me of what’s the need of sleeping in other person’s house if I have my own room already in ours. From then on, I don’t get jealous of people having their over night in their friends house, in fact, I get shy if I would.

College has given me independence I never thought I could really feel. When I decided to study in Baguio, I learned to do my own laundry, to reuse jeans, to decide for my meal and to budget finances, etc. And when it comes to studying, I learn to share..

The challenge in college is not to stay in the rank or competing with others; it is competing with yourself and the time. IT’S GETTING OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE. It is where PRESSURE BECOMES BONDING. I learned to be unselfish and to welcome concepts others taught me. I have learned that FAILING IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD BUT AN INSPIRATION for someone to do better the next time. I have learned that UNDERSTANDING IS BETTER THAN LISTENING.

The exams are really difficult. It’s not like in high school where you just sit and never mind if you study or not because either way you are still going to pass because of what is so-called STACK KNOWLEDGE. In college, you don’t do that. I experienced not sleeping the whole night for an exam or report. It is why my face experienced pimples. Rushing is never a good option even. You need to understand definitions, master the way of proving theorems, and sacrifice time for problem sets. Copy and Paste is a serious NO-NO, I learned to be unique and to draw conclusions my own.

One thing I missed out for being a UPan is that I never experienced joining rallies. But it doesn’t mean that I am not aware of the issue, as a matter of fact sometimes I give someone a glimpse of the issue. In UP I have learned to DO NOT BELIEVE IN EVERYTHING YOU SEE OR HEAR IN THE SURROUNDINGS, MAKE YOU OWN RESEARCH, SEE THE OTHER SIDE, AND STAND ON YOUR RIGHTS. Yes, I did. And I hate it when other people would refer UPans as REBELDES, we are just fighting for people’s right. It’s not being rebelde but it’s being SMART.

Other people would tell to enjoy high school because in college it’s different already like you’ll work alone. I tell them I LOVE COLLEGE MUCH MORE THAN I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL. I enjoy college; it is where I leaned that to be brilliant is not only because of hereditary genes but by how much effort you exert for it. In college, your classmate will never see you as a competitor and your teacher will never judge you just because you fail an exam. In college too, you will need not to impress teachers and spoil them for you to pass. I leaned to trust everyone’s answer. If there are people who are angry to you, you need not to care. It’s not like in high school that when one person is angry to you, you feel like the whole world hates you. And one thing, you don’t take seriously the angst you have, you’re free to talk with your enemy even when you did not say sorry. In college, I’ve seen the truest friends in the world.

I’ll miss college for sure. I’ll miss my friends, my groups and my math-phy family. I have seen the real meaning of friends, of studying, of being brilliant, of environment, and of everything and of being real. The once stranger people are now my friends. The confidences that are afraid to be known are shared. The love that is lost has been found. The success of tomorrow is sweeter than how I taste it yesterday.

Thanks be to God.

2008-10-02T01:09:00.000-07:00

God never leaves His children.

He never leaves me.
I thank the Lord my God for making me realized how my days have gone.

And for that, I believe that once one has put his faith all to Him, He would take care of us.

He takes care of me when I seem to be alone.
He lets me feel His love.
He helps me to budget time and plan things.

I thank Him for being just there. He lets me see my mistakes yet He supports me and helps me to grow and correct them.

I’m here to grow and be better. I must not waste my time with my disappointments. Being sensitive will not hinder me to do better. I’ll do better. I can do better. And there are a whole lot of opportunities in this world. There’s always a space in this world for improvement and success. I believe. I put my trust to Him.

a surprise

2008-09-24T02:05:00.000-07:00

She was taking her lunch with her iced tea when 3 men and 1 woman pass in front their house. They were carrying red balloons, a cake, and a tarpaulin. Then 2 more men followed carrying a one whole lechon baboy and then followed by foods. But not one of them enters their house. They were all going in the next door. It was her neighborhoods birthday, a grand mother. The people who brought the surprise were her child. But the celebrant wasn’t in there yet. It was so sweet, at least to her sight.

She loves it. She loves surprises. She even gives surprises to people who are important to her. She invented simple surprises to make one day special to someone. But she dreams for more..

She dreams of her boyfriend’s birthday. His debut was near. She wants it to be special. So she prays hard for her to get work right away after September in according to accomplish it. And then she dreams of her birthday. In her entire life, she never wishes for more but she’s always expecting. She always expects for bigger things. Though expectations fail her at times she learns to cope with disappointments.

And then she dreams of her engagement, she wants it to be the sweetest thing she will ever see. The fireworks which make her sight always glad, familiar faces surrounding, and of course her man, should at most be there. And then there she is, happy. Her happiness can’t be paint anymore, not with the best painter in the world.

And she dreams of her wedding, the day where she marries him. It would be the fragrant smell she will have to smell. She wants it solemn. She wants every single person in her life and his life knows their love story. She wants people draw inspiration from them as they did with people who have God in center of them. She wants it magical because she’ll treasure it forever. She will make a difference by making their marriage for real.

And she dreams of their honeymoon. It would be the greatest feeling she will feel. It would be in a different place or even in a different country. She wants it private. She wants it best.

She chooses surprises before planning because she wants everything treasured by everyone. She wants everything remembered by heart. She loves surprises. She loves surprises. She loves surprises. Since the day she matures, she’s still a child in heart. And at her heart she will always love. She will always love him. She never ceased to let him out of his plans. He will always be in it. She paints her tomorrow with him. She can’t imagine anymore life without him. He is the greatest in her life. The one she will want to see before her day start and the last person she will cared for before she closes her eyes.

And then surprises were revealed. The grandma came, and the next door were filled with singing voices for the grandma’s birthday.

She's done dreaming.. She's praying to make it real..

2008-09-17T22:57:00.000-07:00

Everyone seems busy right now.

I thought everyone has turned its back on me and leave me facing alone my “after-college” problem where I asked them how I face it.

Maybe I was just being pathetic. I was wrong. What I thought would be my challenge becomes easier when everyone shares their thought about it. I was grateful. I really am.

And because of my being pathetic for how many days, I end up wanting everyone’s attention. I liked all people who are closed to me to be even close and spoil me. I freak when they don’t. I got mad. And now, I’m sorry.

Good thing, my people are real. They don’t leave me when I seem to be different from myself. These people really know me well. I’m so lucky not to lose them even though how un-accepting I am to their points. I’m even happier my best friend and my boyfriend never fail to remain calm after all with me.

Everyone, thanks for sharing your viewpoints. I got it. All of you say that the final decision will always be according to me. I’m glad you helped. I’m processing everything. I’m hoping and praying everything will be alright. I leave everything to God. I know His Promises won’t let go of me.

In less than a month

2008-09-15T23:44:00.000-07:00

In less than a month..

In less than a month, I’ll be completing my units for graduation.

In less than a month, hopefully and with God’s grace, I’ll be graduating.

Yes, like most of those students who are happy after finishing college too, I am happy.

Unlike them, I’m “undecidedly decided”.

My tale.

Nearly, 4 ½ years of studying. 9 semesters and 2 summer classes of persevering and, I won’t deny it, enjoying my college years. The start of my first 2-3 years is fine, my family never fails to provide me financially. And when every member of my family hears about my near graduation, it seems like I have a big responsibility right that moment. Everyone is helping and giving me even my not too significant desires for me to be happy and thankful. I did. I was greatful I have them. After all of my independence I think I got, Mom is calling me once a week, she never ceased to pursue me to work in the province. She said I’ll just get an experience there since this october is my graduation, it will be hard for me to find job in Manila.

My point: Ma, Manila is manila there’s bigger opportunity there for me and I don’t think that province would make a good experience for me. I’m sorry to say that but I don’t really think that it will make a better experience for my first working experience.

Secondly, she was telling me I’ll work there even for just 2 months.

My point: Almost every work now has a contract. And two months of working in their company would allow them to file a bridge of contract case against me. Not good.

Lastly, she was telling me that people there, neighborhoods maybe in particular, would think why won’t I come home after graduation.

My point: The hell I care with what others would think why I haven’t been home for almost a year. Think whatever you think if you still got your brains with you! I choose to live my life out of destructions. WARNING TO ALL YOU STORY MAKERS: Don’t condemn and say things about me just because you can’t be me, can never be me, and can’t accept I’m better than you or your child!

Here’s for everyone and everything.

I hate pressures. Never in my life have I experienced being pressured by anyone not even my family. I did what I can do and even I, am amazed too that I have done better in my school. No one pressures me to be on top during elementary and highschool. Not to brag things but let me do things according to how I want my life to be. All I’m asking, don’t pressure me now with things I have to do after college. I have plans too. In my plans are the plans I have for my family, my mom in particular, the plans for my family and the plans I have in my life.

P.S to the reader:

My family and relatives are one of my priorities and will always be important to me. My mom is my top priority. I love them and will love them no matter what. Don’t judge them by how I write things about them. I won’t be even happy if ever you did. I’m just presenting my points and their points the way I see it. The purpose of this is to get opinions from you. Please do comment after. I hope you got what I mean. The thing is I can’t easily follow what I want because I am still financially dependent of course. I know who’ll read this so please drop a comment. I would be glad to hear from you. Thanks. God bless us all.

my very first pupil..

2008-09-02T03:10:00.000-07:00

Her name is Joanne Lynn Whitehill.
A grade 5 pupil of Academia de Sophia International in South Drive Baguio City.
It was my best bud Zy who recommended me to her mother when they were finding a tutor for joanne.
I call her joanne. And she calls me teacher khen..
I’m so glad to have my very first pupil, although I don’t have plans to teach after college.
She’s brilliant though she tends to always forget what has been taught with her always.
After I taught her something she would process it with her mind first to check if I taught her the right thing, funny it may seem but it’s true.

And when she tells me “..i’m tired..” she’ll sure get a rest minute for our teaching session. And even after teaching her math for 2 hours a week, I make sure that we’ll share stories about anything – her school, her cousins and barbie. She loves barbie too, she loves wearing pink, which reminds me of my barbie days too way back when I was of her age.
I’m going to miss you sweetie.
My sweetest pupil told me last satuday after our tutor: “I wish tomorrow you’re here again..” aww.. I wish I could but I have an exam my dear.Love yah!

bente uno na kame!

2008-08-20T23:24:00.000-07:00

zy's 21st (august 12, 2008)

It’s u_uel’s debut party last august 19.

We’ve gone “sosy” that day (charie:”social naten.. social climber hehe” but that was a joke)

We ate at 50’s diner at Baguio. 5 guys in the hood (bread, pizza slice, spaghetti, 1 fried chicken, 1 pork chop, carrots, potatoes and baguio beans) + a pitcher of iced tea.. A totally big serving for our obviously big tummies. Plus it’s not yet over, we dropped by charie’s dorm to eat the cake.

Oh, janis will surely be jealous of this night. God must have given uel so much blessings on his birthday because it rained too hard. But whatever the season may be, it will never hinder our party jam-packed with total happiness. I love you guys. Surely, everyone has a good night sleep that night. As for me, too bad my stomach and back aches leaving zy and danna massaging me after I puked. Eww.. Nevertheless, thank God for giving us another treasured bonding. And when I asked uel what’s his wish, he answered: “Good health.” Well, may God ensure him and everyone with a good health forever. Thank you Lord.

when it rains, stand out!

2008-08-06T00:23:00.000-07:00

Back in highschool, I really don’t mind rainy days. Sometimes I love it when classes are cancelled because of heavy rains. If it rains during classes I am just inside the school. If it rains during weekends I stayed inside our house the whole time and when there’s power interruption because of heavy rains I spent the time listening to the rain and I find myself day dreaming..

During my first year in college, I couldn’t escape heavy rains. Because if I let it pass away I may just be the only one left in school waiting for the rain to go away which mostly takes 2-3 days. Aweful.. So I travelled the road going home with wet pants and wet bags not because I don’t have an umbella but the raindrops are really heavy. Eww..

“Don’t.. But If..” during rainy days

Don’t wear super long pants because there’s a chance you’ll end up wearing a half wet pants because of rain until you get home. But If you wear short pants you’ll end up freezing.
Don’t wear shoes because you’ll end up with wet socks and super eww wet feet when you get home but if you wear slippers it might also increase your freezing momentum. Also you might lose your slippers when the floor is slippery. Either of the two, you still get the chance to kick a dirty water. Woo..
Don’t wear skirts because the air might blow it away but if you do wear skirts, there’s no chance for your lower garments to get wet only men will feast for your legs=p no no. plus if you wear skirts, dirts have the chance to get on your legs.
Don’t leave the house without bringing an umbrella wether it rains or not. It helps. No ifs.

You can still be fashionable even during rainy days. But remember FASHION + CLEANLINESS make the perfect outfit. Stay clean even if it rains. Because fashion + wet garments make you rugged. Who doesn’t love cleanliness anyway? Go cleanliness. Go away typhoons!

MATHalinong PHYreshman2008

2008-08-05T03:02:00.000-07:00

When I decided to get little bit "lie-low" with my online thing, I discovered I can actually make my boredome time productive.

When I have manage already to not go online regularly, I have committed myself already to my org. Like I do attend events and now I am willing to attend meetings eventhough I don’t have a class during Wednesdays where it is our meeting day. Yeah, at least I am joining again..

Here’s our 1st event for this sem: MATHalinong PHYreshman 2008.

Freshmen joined the said event. There were obviously more contestants this year than last year. It turned-out as a success! Yey.. And what do you think of our new jacket? hehe=p Go mathphy pep squad!*winx*

Dear God..

2008-07-29T21:57:00.000-07:00

I post for forgiveness of my God..

Unlike my other entries where I write everything to glorify Him, now I am asking for forgiveness through my blogspot. Because He deserves it.

For the past few days or weeks I used my tongue not to glorify Him but to say bad things against my enemy.

There were certain events that I don’t want to elaborate anymore because I don’t want to trigger the anger anymore and as much as I want my heart feel light now, I disregard everything.

No matter how it hurts me, no matter how it degrades me and no matter how they insulted me, I leave everything to my God. I know MY GOD IS MIGHTY. He will fight for me in the battle when He knows I can’t take it anymore. And HE REIGNS. We just have to BELIEVE.

Almost all the time when I talked this with the person very close to my heart, I end up crying NOT BECAUSE I AM HURT, BUT BECAUSE I HURT MY GOD. And it’s more hurting than any hurt I felt in my life..

I commit a big mistake already when I entertained Satan in my life before but now I’m back with My God. I will never let anyone ruin my relationship with my God. Because the life I have with My God is now much much better and HE is the best of all.

Dear Lord, forgive me.

Forgive me for hurting you, for using my tongue in bad things where it has to glorify you my God.

For hurting people you love when you said you love everyone.

But most importantly I ask for forgiveness for hurting you Father who deserves everything. You who deserve to glorify with our tongue, to praise with our heart and to love the things You gave us Lord because you love them. If I can’t love the unlovable then I promise bot to hurt them instead.

Forgive me my Lord and forgive them. I know Lord when you’re people ask for forgiveness, you forgive them and erased that sin on the person’s list.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY.

Amen.

From the song “Here I am to worship”

“I never know how much it cause to see my sin upon that cross..

CALL UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD AND BE SAVED..”

NO MORE TO DOUBLE LIFE.

2008-07-21T00:50:00.000-07:00

As an application, we tore a sheet of paper with DOUBLE LIFE written in the church.
YES no more to double life.
A life where we are different when when nobody’s looking around and when we are with friends.

INTEGRITY is Internal Consistency.
-of being honest.
-of being consistent of who we are.
-of living life pleasing to God.

So no more pretending. Be who we are. Magalit na sila at least we’re not being plastic. We say the truth and if ever it hurts them maybe they are guilty. Yun lang yun hehe=p basta ako walang galit pag pinagsasabihan sila kung seseryosohin nila, be mature na lang. yun lang. hehe=) keep it down.

Overcoming and Overflowing

2008-07-07T20:31:00.000-07:00

Yehei, the honey’s were together again for 3 days. July 5-7 2008 was a totally one of our happiest days again. No more crying this time before leaving Manila because we discovered it’s better to leave each other with a happy and satisfy face. Thank God.

July 5 was my sister debut celebration, so I host the event. And got drunk in the evening but that’s all about it, never again I swear.

Well, I feel like sharing with you what we’ve learned from the Sunday service at church. Let me just write it just like how i wrote it in my notepad.

Let me quote the text message sent to me:

“Why do bad things happen to good people?”
.. is a wrong question for there is no answer.
The right question is,
“What happens to good people when bad things happen to them?”
The answer?
“With God’s grace, they always become better people.”

2008-07-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, pictures speak louder than words..

2008-07-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

What Khenly Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

movie marathon brought me these...

2008-06-24T20:07:00.000-07:00

I am undeniably a movies lover.. hehe=p

Everybody has bad times.
Do we separate the good times because of them?
-Enchanted

That day I woke up and put on my 28th dress
I went to a wedding where no one asks me to hold the bouquet hold their place card or hold their dress while they pee
Everything was perfect and I didn’t care
Because right then, the only thing that mattered was the person waiting for me at the end of the aisle
And he was looking at me the way I always hoped
-27 dresses

"I can't imagine myself having one job for the rest of my life?"

-Bee movie

**" Yesterday is a history,

tomorrow is a mystery,

Today is a gift,

That's why it's called PRESENT."

**"If we don't try, we'll never know"

-Kung Fu Panda

***"be careful with what you say..

Because sometimes we say the word because the situation calls for it but we don't mean it."

***"The more you expect, the more you invite disappointments"

-When love begins.

2008-06-23T00:05:00.000-07:00

List of Examination Passers (PPT - CSE Professional) March 9, 2008 - http://www.csc.gov.ph/

CSC Cordillera Autonomous Region (CAR) Office New Lucban, Baguio City
Title of Examination: CAREER SERVICE EXAMINATION - PROFESSIONAL

Date of Examination: MARCH 9, 2008

Date of Release: JUNE 19, 2008

List of Examination Passers (In Alphabetical Order)

Seq # Examinee No. Examinee Name

6 240349 GUSTIN, LOURDES GENEVIEVE D

42 240736 CABUTAJE, ROSE ANN B

88 240744 FABABEIR, KHEENLY O

102 240593 GERARDO, SUNSHINE DEE D

117 240968 LAMUG, MELODY A

137 240358 MERCADO, RHODA G

Ow.. thank God.. yeepee.. Government, here we are!! The rest people here are my friends too who passed!! Congratulations Guys! We did it. We did it. We did it.. Oh yeah! (Dora Dora the explorer hehe=p)

Eco-trail @ Camp John Hay

2008-06-22T23:25:00.000-07:00

Had a real and wonderful time with the UP Math-Physics Society. They are my orgmates since I joined the society in 2004. The last Saturday (June 21, 2008) is absolutely one of the happiest moment in my whole math-phy life. We celebrated our sem-opener at Camp John Hay. It was my first time to walk through the eco-trail. At first I thought we get the chance of choosing our teammates because I have already my too good buddies na pag kame magkakasama it’s a total fun because we do a lot of laughing. But the facilitator decided that we three should belong to other team. So it’s like team building. I get to be closed with people who were not too close with me in the org, and yes I am proud to say we made it closer!! Yehei.

Everyone was planning already even before we enter the eco-trail, we don’t have any ideas but while walking we end up with a nice name for our team which we were not serious at first but ended up with it. We call ourselves “The Cauchy (pronounced as “kutchi=kotse” because an orgmate mispronounced it in class) team”

The amazing race started around 2pm, we do a serious running and running from one station to the next. What I’ve learned during those time is that “THERE IS NO ROOM FOR KAARTEHAN THIS TIME.” That even if we look crazy with how we finished the task from one-station we don’t care it. We want to win and at the same time give the best performance as always. Mind you, when I was watching amazing race at the television I thought I can also do that but after our amazing race I think I’ll be the first to be eliminated when it comes to rushing up.

Well all paid great for our team bonding and happiness. That eventhough we were the last to perform with the cheer that came last to us, we are “THE BEST CHEER TEAM.” We are always nominated in every category. Oh yes, it is so so cool. Since we changed identity, like we made the guys as girls and the girls as guys through the power of make-ups, it added to spicing up the challenge. We are the best play, Eduard got the “BEST ACTOR” while I got the “BEST ACTRESS” award because of one station who requires acting horror with comedy with background song. So while in that froni volunteered to sing while we go with the chan chan chan chan (horror sound) while scarying the judges and make them laugh. They laugh too hard in fairness.

All of my teammates and I were nominated. Fronimarc won the “ANG GANDA MO AWARD” and with Jane we are “THE BEST POSE TEAM”. So there was no point where we need to be reminded that we are not that close because after all we are a family. A mathphy person relates well with every math-phy person wether they are close or not. I guess that’s the real essence of a family. Congratulations Guys. Jane, Eduard and Froni, though we are the 1st-runner up team because of the points, we win even if we lost in one station we manage to be the 2nd still. We are the best team. I am going to miss you all.

OVERCOMING DOUBT

2008-06-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

For the past few days, I’ve been job hunting. I tried at People’s support call center, Blue & beyond online tutoring and then sitel call center. I never missed the chance of gaining new friends while applying to lessen my nervousness syndrome. Ive been doing the application alone. Here are what I’ve learned:
1. Gain friends. Or at least gain a friend. Someone nearer to you can help. You talk, he/she would not mind too for sure. It’s one way of making your self at ease, at-home with the surrounding and gain more insights about the company you are applying for.
2. Talk impressively but clearly. Like you don’t rush talking. For sure, you want to say many things to impress your interviewer but then they come at the same time which makes your talking less impressive.
3. Beat the odds. Fight your weakness and show everyone you are confident.
4. Say the truth. During an interview I would just like to impress which makes my real reason for work be invalidated. Like I just told them I am there because I just like the job, I should have said the truth that I really have to work hard.
5. Be an applicant of responsibility. You apply because you want to work, you work because you have to. You have your own reason of working and the real reason is that you carry a responsibility on you.

And to help everyone, here are someof the questions I have encountered for many of my interviews that I hope can help you:
1. Tell me more about yourself.
2. Why did you study?
3. Why do you want to work in this company?
4. What are your strength? Your weakness?
5. What do you think of this job?
6. How long do you see yourself in this company?
7. How much are you expecting to get?
8. What if we don’t satisfy your expectations?; What if we are not satisfy with you?

Goodluck everyone! Good luck to me. Ciao!

Experiencing God Day By Day..

2008-06-12T22:47:00.001-07:00

It was hard for me when I left Manila for my schooling here in Baguio for a while.

Though it will just take me at most 6 months here, I left Manila like a child crying too hard to his parents because he doesn’t want to be alone, but in my part it’s being apart from Jayson.

It took me almost a week to adjust to my environment like it was just my freshie years. Everynight I swear I don’t sleep without shredding a tear. Is it because of missing him a lot?Or the thought that I miss the time he allotted with me during our summer ‘08 months? Yes, we get attached with each other more.. Thank God we don’t actually lose our brains that says: “hey you have to graduate!” Thanks for our gifted brains perhaps..

The week where I am adjusting is actually the week where my faith was tested.

I felt like I don’t get what I need. That though I’ve been glorfying the Lord and begging him so much to do a way for what I want, He won’t answer. I felt like God has turned His back on me. And I was asking myself: “Lord, where did I go wrong? What did I do for you not to forgive me?”

And by then my Faith becomes stronger. Yes, it’s true. I told Him: “Lord, I am not giving up. There is no reason to give up just because I don’t get what I want. If this is not meant for me now, I know you have better plans. And no matter how long will it take me to get there, I WILL WAIT.”

When I woke up this morning and read the devotional for every day of the year Experiencing God Day By Day, I found myself not actually reading the June 12, what I have read was the July 12 devotional. And right then I know God is communicating with me. The devotional I read says: “WAIT ON THE LORD.”

I quote: “Waiting is one of the hardest thing to do. We want to be people of action. We feel better if we are doing something to address our need, but waiting forces us to rely on God.
Times of waiting on the Lord can be some of the most precious moments in your life (John 11:1-6). If you are waiting on God for something, read Isaiah 40:31 and find encouragement as you wait for Him to fulfill His promises to you.”

WHATEVER HAPPENS I WILL FOREVER PUT MY FAITH ON GOD. I LIVE FOR HIM AND WITH HIM I KNOW I WILL SUCCEED.

WAIT UPON THE LORD
By Emily Matthews

Waiting is the hardest when we feel our need is great.
But it helps if we remember that our God is never late.
He knows our deepest longings. And He times things perfectly.
For in His love, He only does what’s best for you and me.

bitten by the cat..

2008-06-08T21:03:00.000-07:00

June 7, 2008.

Her name is Cathy..
She's not ours but we feed her and we welcome her..

One morning I was doing my typical sampay mode outside the house,
when accidentally I stepped on her.

She bites me. And yes it hurts..

Jayson was more nervous than I am. He keeps on asking if it was just a scratch or if it has four points. The cat really bites me, see the four points..

I am careful enough not to let myself be bitten by dogs. I'm afraid with rabies. I knew that the effect of it can actually take long. So for myself I followed Jayson advised. Cats have rabies too. So this is what I got. 4 injections that day..

I still have four more session to go for this treatment. It's all within this month, 10, 14, 21 and 28 to be exact..

I have to make this done.. Afraid that I'll be some cat attitude lady in the future.. meow*

Palawan 2008

2008-05-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

My french10 class ends today just an hour before I do this bloggie thing

..here is my palawan experience.

We leave manila April 5pm by sea.. yes, Im not afraid with ship rides, I love to travel so kahet ano pa yan go go go.. The ship was little but I don’t care either, Their foods are all yummy plus the fact that I was able to meet my tito from father’s side who worked there, so I enjoyed there.
We were in Coron by Sunday afternoon, we took pictures from it,. Laki na ng improvement since my last visit there. While taking pictures, there were people who went to port.. Exactly that time, Marian Rivera was there.. It was the time when they have shooted dyesebel there..
It was 14 years or so since my last visit to Palawan. My lola and lolo were in Culion. It was Monday when we reached the port of Culion. Sa super excited ko I want to go to my lolo and lola na, tapos magswimming, mamasyal.. lahat gusto ko gawin for that day only! imagine? Ganun ako kasaya!! So by night we travel by dad’s car to my lolo and lola in Patag Culion Palawan. Hindi naman halatang masyado din sila naexcite sa pagbabalik probinsya ko for vacation. My lolo and lola were super hug saken and super smile.. awww. Here comes the spoiled apo!!! ready for their pag bebaby sit saken,, awww…
Too bad we were not able to take pictures with my lolo and lola pero sabe ko naman we’ll have more of it when I come back hopefully next year.

NPA ako sa Palawan!! As in.. hehe.. No permanent Address since everynight iba iba pinagtutulugan namen. 1st night sa lolo and lola ko sa Patag, then sa Bernabe kina dad, tapos sa Pulang Lupa kina dad ulet tapos sa tita namen tapos kina lolo and lola ulet tapos kina tita ulet.. ganun kasi madame kelangan bisitahin kasi 1 week nga lang kame..

Which means, habang ako kung san san napapadpad sa Palawan, my uber close friend Janis is super hard worked sa pag-eenroll saken sa Diliman.. Di bale lahat na ata ng klase ng pasalubong na nakita at kaya ng budget ko, binili ko na for them at syempre madame kay Jayson..
Super saya din ng swimming experience since yun lang ulet yung time na nagbeach ako.. tagal na.. dame ko na palang hindi ginagawa na nakakamiss.. nakakamiss..

And we took the bangka to coron by Sunday and Superferry1 came to fetch us back to Manila.

Madame ako nadiscover:
1. Nagmimilo sila during merienda time like 3pm ganun, hindi uso ang softdrinks pero sofydrinks pa ren kame minsan..
2. Panget ang araw araw na daing.. pero masarap ang daing.
3. No one compares my lolo and lola! Super love ko talaga sila!
4. Nakakaitim pa din magbeach sa gitna ng malakas na sinag ng araw kahet mag sun block kasi hanggang ngayon halata pa ren yung difference ng kulay ko.. hehe=)
5. Pag spoiled ka, inggit ang mga pinsan mo kahet ang babata pa nila.. kasi ako ang reyna nung dumating ako sa bahay nila lolo and lola. As in anytime pwedeng manood ng movie. Mas ok manood ng movies kesa teleserye.. love ko na talaga mag movie marathon na lang..
6. Nga pala, 12 ng tanghali until 12 midnight lang ang kuryente dun.
7. Exciting pa ren ang magsalok ng tubig galing sa Balong malalim.. wee, it reminds me of jack en jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water..
8. Masarap at walang kupas pa ren ang kasoy nila lola..
9. Number 1 sa puso ko ang Palawan kasi number 1 lahat ang mga tao dun saken especially sina lolo and lola ko. Love it. Love them so much!
10. Mahirap magtagal sa Palawan lalo na kung may naiwan kang lovelife sa manila kaya iyon 1 week lang para magkapiling na muli at mag-aral na ng french.. next time dapat kasama ko na honey ko..

**More pictures soon pag naayos ko na at naupload ko na yung iba na kuha ko=)

BBBB (BUSY BUT BE BACK=D)

2008-04-15T03:29:00.000-07:00

BBBB = Busy but be back..

On 1 week summer vacation to PALAWAN..
On FRENCH summer class enrolled at UP DILIMAN=)

GOING TO MISS YOU ALL..*WINX*

you asked for it..

2008-03-06T20:44:00.000-08:00

and so I spend my weekend with movie marathon..

as in I rented all kinds of vcds just to make my weekend less boring..

as time goes kasi, graduation seems to come faster..

but not me to that..(*sigh).. not this april..

oh well, from the movie EVAN ALMIGHTY( can't believe I just watched it now..), Ive learned the value of wanting and wishing for something..

When someone asked for courage, because he wants to be courageous.

When someone wished for patience, because he wants to be patient..

When someone prayed for his family to be intact, he wants it.

We wish for something we want..
We pray for something we need..

We pray not because we don't have it.. but we want to have it fully..

Day by day, I pray for something I want, only to realize I need more.

I pray that God bless me and all the people I love.

I pray that God would bless me all I need.

I always tell Him, I believe in Him. And to Him I trust my life.

Yes, I always believe in Him.

I believe in the power of my Faith.

And in times of problems, no matter how crazy my look will be, I am never afraid to talk with him.

Inside my room or whenever I walk alone, I know I am not alone because He is just up away.

I hope people can see how prayer works in several ways.

How it is powerful.

How it can change the world..

I know whichever way God wants me to be, I am safe..

Whoever He wants to put in my life, I am blessed.

Whatever He chooses for me, I am successful.

..I thank God for a Blessed me..

When a prof included a question "How are you today?" in our attendance sheet I wrote down "Blessed."

And that's how I want everyone else too..

blog anniversary!!

2008-03-03T18:51:00.000-08:00

It’s just now that I realize my blog has gone a lllooonnggg way already.

Congratulations.

I thank my blogspot for keeping me records of everything. My pictures, my opinions, and my journeys in particular.
For sure the stories that were written here will keep me on track today and even on the future.
I watched myself grow and watch how my blogspot stores all my growing up years.

Sometimes I have to draft recent entries in order to keep good memories posted.
Yes, I chose to not publish all the sad entries I had though I know it’s going to give the readers lots of realizations. The thing is I have grow. Part of growing up is to forget everything that weakens someone, that weakens me. We all need to grow.

Watch me grow and watch how my blogspot grow..

For my blog 2nd anniversary, I changed my header from:

to:

Happy 2 years of keeping memories blogspot. Love you!

5 STAR Blog Award

2008-02-28T20:46:00.000-08:00

woohoo.. para sa aking ika-isandaang entry post, hindi ko akalain na magkakaroon ako ng ganitong award.

Super uber BIG THANKS to VERSO PARA LIBERTAD for this award.

My first blog award.

This makes me happy today, uber thanks talaga.

He mentions "Khen-for the inspiration she brings to her readers borne out of her Christian values and Love of God."

I never thought my Christian Values would bring the readers much inspiration. I just simply write down here what I truly learned everyday. And Everything is because of God.

God bless you more VERSO PARA LIBERTAD!!

Mabuhay ang blog mo!

Everyone, A MUST READ BLOG "http://www.olivercarlos.blogspot.com/" since the start eventhough wala pa ang ganitong award. His words brings TRUTH.

Mabuhay ang BLOG WORLD!!=)P

What about LOVE//

2008-02-25T19:45:00.000-08:00

Last February 7, 2008 I attended the VICTORY Christian Fellowship here at Baguio with Danna because she was inviting me too to listen to her friend Jason Paolo's composition which is an entry to a radio station here in Baguio.

Here's what I learned from the Pastor.
Since love is all around the world and the heart's day is so near. I'm so lucky to listen to the preaching all about "Meeting Mr. Dreamboy"

Here's the first question for sharing:
What characteristic would you like your ideal mate to possess? why?

Here's my notes:

1 King 2:1-2
So be strong, SHOW YOURSELF A MAN.

Be COURAGEOUS.
Be STRONG.

stand up with conviction

Be a man of CONVICTION.

say NO.
saying NO to unrighteousness when everybody else says YES.

Be SELF-CONTROLLED.

Great character from inside and out not just today but forever.

Here's the message of the Pastor in the end.

"What right do you have to ask for a girl's affection, commitment, and emotions if you have no plans to back it up with a serious, lifelong commitment." -Anonymous.

quote it up!

the first quantum w/ sweet friends

2008-02-22T23:09:00.000-08:00

February 22, 2008 was the day..

I believe in choosing your friends. Kaya nga may kasabihan na: ‘Tell me who your friends are and I’ll tell you who you are’ I believe in that. Your friends greatly affect the kind of person you are. We are greatly molded by our environment especially the peers we have. I don’t choose my friends to suit in them nor them to suit in me. It just happens. Your friends are actually the ones who are like YOU. You may not be the same totally all-over but you share common interests. If ever you are changed, it’s because you become better.

My friends are one-of- a-kind. They are what the world offers me the best. I am so blessed God has given me my treasured and worth for the word ‘forever friends’ to me. We have no leader because anyone can be a leader and all else follow too. We support each other. When there’s something wrong they don’t decide. They let you decide but let you realize yourself and the situation. We do a lot of goofing around. We say the truth. We are not uber nerd but we study for better yet know how to unwind. We love eating and bonding. We can talk anything under the world. There’s no limit because that’s who we are. We boost each other. We see the best of each other. We are the best.

sweetest friends in the world

The only time we cry for friendship is when we laugh too much.

They know when you suddenly changed mood.

They know what is your favorite topic all the time.

My friends are the reason behind my maturity and my growing times. I am not perfect but whenever we are with each other we are becoming perfect for each other..

We don’t go for parties but we are happy and contented. We know what to value during this time and that is to study first before those party life. A vacation-grande will be waiting for us in a nearer years after we study. And that’s when we planned bonding in the different side of the country or the world. But right now, we are completely contented and satisfied.

Zy, Charie, Janis, MC, and u_uel, I love you guys!

Here are the sweet friends last Feb 22, 2008 at Quantum SM BAGUIO. For the first time bonding at the videoke.

List of Songs for remembrance:

Fallin (Regine Velasquez >Khen)
Irreplaceable (MC)
Stay (u_uel)
Love will lead you back (Zy)
Everytime (Britney >Khen)
Through the rain (ZY)
Till they take my heart away(Charie)
Listen (MC and u_uel)
One Last Song (Zy) !!!!100%!!!!
Zombie (Janis)

disappointments

2008-02-19T19:47:00.000-08:00

I hate disappointing people.
I personally am the one getting hurt when I did.
Well I don't! but due to some circumstances I accidentally did and for that I AM SORRY.

I don't like to be disappointed either because I am even hurting.
But you know what's the worst part? WE EXPECT and that ruins everything.

I'll do what I WANT.
And the NEED to graduate is calling.
I'll strive even harder. I promise.

You'll see me better.
You'll see me best.

Be inspired. Be very very inspired.

19th AMPIQS - the best and the glorious

2008-02-16T18:54:00.000-08:00

The 19th Annual Math-Physics Interschool Quiz Show was successfully celebrated yesterday. 28 confirmed but there were only 15 schools who appeared and participated. Overall it turned out to be successful. Iba na talaga high-school students ngayon, they are not afraid to defend and ask which is so good.

A big thanks and congratulations for the Math-Phy, we all did great.. sana marami tayo natutunan from the experience of holding such a big event.

Congratulations to the winners of this year AMPIQS, you bring yourself and your school glory.
And to all who participated, congratulations! By just giving yourself, you became the best!

I'm sleepy and tired always every AMPIQS but it's all worth the effort.
My org is more than an organization.
we are more than even friendship.
we are a family..

surprises

2008-02-08T20:28:00.000-08:00

video captured by me during pasiklaban 07

Must admit, I LOVE FIREWORKS!!! i love watching it.. I remember one time we have a class then since we're on the top level of the building and our class is around 6pm-7pm we can see fireworks during the chinese new year and really can't help to watch it eventhough there's a teacher lecturing.. hihi=) Someday, I'll display fireworks on my own during special occasions. Fireworks displays are really expensive yet it's soooo beutiful. They soothe the soul. They satisfy me. Applause for all the fireworks manufacturers! You made life happy=)

Valentine's day is all around the world.. My friends and I drop in the mall to buy some chocolates for the chocolate bonding later and found too many guys buying flowers at the flower shop of course, balloons, etc. Oh well, I gave my advance gift already to my honey. Later I'll be giving my friends chocolates wrapped in a beautiful red ribbon=) huwow, so sweet me for all the sweet friends and all the sweetness in the world.. So whether your sweeties are around or not, for sure you always have your friends around too. Whether you're single or not, there's no reason to spoil the day. Be happy. Stay in love. Heart is the most vital organ in our body so take a lot lot care of it. Have a healthy heart and lovable day!!

Happy Hearts Day Everyone! Greetings from me and my friends:

the friends before m198 research presentation

Live life with laughters and love. Happy Valentines Everyone!

February Complements=)

2008-02-05T17:02:00.000-08:00

Happy February everyone=)
And a happy start for february with me.=)

I spent the first weekend of February with my honey and his family. Thanks to: Tita Len, Tita Vel, Tito Boyet, Tito Brian, Tito Raul, Joseph, Dandan, Daryl, Mommy, JM, Ate Marian, ate grace, etc. for a great great company last weekend. These guys are so cool including Jayson’s tiat’s and tito’s. They are just so accommodating and good. We went to see my Bestfriend Eunique too and I can say best, you changed a lot better=)

Last Sunday we attend JESUS IS LORD mass at Oxford in Cubao. We were anointed. The pastor taught us of being not afraid to offer ourselves with the Lord. We tend to offer Him anything in exchange for something but when it comes to ourselves we are afraid to fully offer ourselves with Him. We are afraid because we think that whenever we did we might end up dying and give our life with the Lord. But offering ourselves with the Lord makes us more blessed. When we offer our life with him, it only means we let Him do all the driving with our life. Let us not be afraid to offer, trust and welcome the Lord in our life. When we offer ourselves with Him, we are sure of a great life ahead. I offer myself with Him. I’ll let Him do all the things in my life because I trust Him. A great life is with me because of Him and no other than my Lord.

I arrived at Baguio Tuesday (feb 5) at 130pm. I presented my research (Complementary Coffee Cups) at around 4pm though our class is 3pm, I was the second reporter that afternoon. Too bad wasn’t able to install AUTOCAD07 that Jayson introduced to me to make my research even more presentable. But yet, I still have a good presentation. Everything goes on smoothly, questions were answered and I got a good complement for my reporting. Nice job Khen. Nice reporting. Nice everything=) woo, I survived the presentation. Thanks to my adviser Sir Gilbert for making me know all the formulas and geometry behind. Thanks to my honey who makes my presentation more beautiful, for his drawing of cups and cups with images. Thanks be to God for giving me the confidence. I was all cool during the presentation. Yipee=)

Got our pictures already from STUDIO PRO. Here are they=) Do visit my multiply to check my friend's pix too. You can have a copy personally if we’re close and you want it trade. God bless everyone=)

Imagine Me Without You

2008-01-27T19:09:00.000-08:00

IMAGINE ME WITHOUT YOU

jaci velasquez

As long as stars shine down from heaven

And the rivers run into the sea

Til the end of time forever

You're the only love I'll need

In my life You're all that matters

In my eyes the only truth I see

When my hopes and dreams have shattered

You're the one that's there for me

When I found You I was blessed

And I will never leave You, I need You

Chorus:

Imagine me without You

I'd be lost and so confused

I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid

Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without You

Lord, You know it's just impossible

Because of You, it's all brand new

My life is now worthwhile

I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling

You're love lifted me back on my feet

It was like You heard me calling

And You rush to set me free

When I found You I was blessed

And I will never leave You, I need You

Chorus 2X

I can't imagine me without You


****

I super love this song right now.. I actually downloaded a mp3 format for my fone=) Listen to it every morning and every time I miss it.

The song goes to my Lord who made all things in my life and other people lives possible. I am sharing it too to my honey Jayson who made my life worthwhile. I hope everyone appreciates it and listen and feel it with all your heart.

I am a super believer of God. Everything I am and I have now is because of Him. When Jayson brought me nearer to Him, I regret nothing. I was saved. I am everything I never thought I could be. My life has found its meaning that after all these days and experiences, the Lord God is my shield and He holds the reason for me to live it to the fullest. I am with the Lord.

19th Annual Math-Physics Interschool Quiz Show

2008-01-24T00:21:00.000-08:00

As Math-Phy's prepares for the annual big event of our org the BODs(Board of Directors) went to GREAT IMAGE SM Baguio Branch for our souvenir program pictorial. Check out mathphy.multiply.com:

As a CHAIRPERSON, I'm super kinakabahan na.. This would entail one great sacrifice and dedication. Add to it my research presentation next week (Jan31). Almost deprived myself from sleeping these past few days because of exams and probsets but I am willing to sacrifice more all for my research thing and my love to my org..

Can't wait to give myself a treat this february..

Anyways, I'm inviting you for our 19th Annual Math-Physics Interschool Quiz Show this February 16, 2008 8am at UP Baguio Auditorium (Bulwagan Juan Luna). The contestants will be the student representatives of different schools from Baguio-Benguet.

PRESSURES

2008-01-18T00:48:00.000-08:00

whew! my friends and I survived the 1st long exam in our Numerical Analysis (M136) but not all of us survived the Complex Analysis part including myself but rest assured that we'll give our best again next exam=P

Over the phone, my boyfriend shared with me the pain of being on time (as in pushing thyself to graduate right on time so you're right on track and everyone's watching you will be happy not knowing the pain you've been through because of striving so much to study.) . Well, I don't discourage those who are striving hard. I'm not bitter too because I was aware I enjoyed most of the time during my early college year. My course is a 4-year course and supposedly I will be graduating this March and join all my surviving 2004 batchmates for the centennial graduation event but I'm not. Hopefully by October this year I'll finish all my units (9 units). I changed a lot when it comes to my studying habit. Must admit, I study more this time since there is nothing for recreation except the computer and the very temptatious internet surfing=p
Oh anyways, back with my boyfriend, He was taking up a 5-year couse (Civil Engineering), he was sharing with me the PRESSURE their teachers are giving them because those who will graduate next year need to survive. So he was sharing like everyone needs to level themselves to the brilliants. My boyfriend is intelligent, must admit, because when we were in highschool we(i and he) were the ones competing when it comes to MATH. He asked me if I'll agree if he'll not going to make it to march though he can and i strongly say NO! I'll share to you readers what I told my boyfriend when we were talking, as much as I also learned this thing while learning, if we all want to attain our dreams say GO FOR THE PRESSURES, in the end it will end and you'll be a WINNER. Trust me but most of all TRUST ALL YOUR WORRIES TO THE LORD.

The Lord won't give us anything we can't solve. Trust in Him. He too trusts in us that we can surpass all the trials and hardships. When He sees how much determined, committed and willing we are He will surely bless us with more abundant life. The life we all want is possible with God.

Christmas In Our Hearts

2007-12-16T19:56:00.000-08:00

I love special days. They bring the reason why your day should be different from yesterdays.

Definitely I love Christmas and how it reminded everyone of the special day when Jesus Christ was born.

I love Christmas as much as I love my birthday too.

I love Christmas as much as it’s the time when my family we’ll be together again.

I love Christmas because I can hear carols everywhere,

I love Christmas because I become happier whenever I see Christmas lights on different houses.

We celebrate Christmas because of the same reason that we are happy that Jesus is born.

The difference is how we celebrate the day..

Having spent my 4 years in high school in a Catholic School, everything that concerns a blessed day is celebrated.

It’s during December that we give what we have to the people who need them more.

But this December seems different.

We don’t have Christmas parties.

We don’t have exchange gifts.

We don’t have activities which aim to help more needy people.

Our school will be conducting it’s yearly awaited PASIKLABAN where oblation run happens too.

My org will be conducting a small party game in one of the rooms of the school.

My friends and I will be going to our own provinces.

My classmates are planning for a reunion.

My family doesn’t go to mass but we are trying to celebrate it the day itself (25 in the morning).

Nonetheless, it never hurts to believe in a better day, in a better country.

As long as we have Jesus in our hearts, we are happy.

We can have the great Christmas.

We will be having the great Christmas by being happy, by being good and by being God’s little angels.

Jesus loves His people. Love brings obedience. I love Jesus.

weird

2007-12-01T00:25:00.000-08:00

WEIRD,
adjective, noun.adj.
1. unearthly or mysterious; wild; strange. Ex. The witches moved in a weird dance. They were awakened by a weird shriek.
2. (Informal.) odd; fantastic; queer. Ex. The shadows made weird figures on the wall.
3. (Archaic or Scottish.) having to do with fate or destiny. noun (Archaic or Scottish.) 1a. the power or agency by which events are predetermined; fate; destiny. b. magical power; enchantment.
4. what is destined or fated to happen; predetermined events collectively.
-(World Book deluxe 2005)

I’ve encountered some weird things lately and much weird because I couldn’t see any answers from those questions. I guess that’s what makes it weird.

1st, when my friends and I were walking to the mall from our school, a girl approached us. At first we thought she just wanted to ask for permission if she can text with us, like naubusan ng load ganyan and so we did not talk to her. My blocmate Roma was just too kind to listen to her. Yun pala she just wanted to take a picture with us. She said she was supposed to meet the friend of her boyfriend at SM but the friend did not appear but she has to have a picture with a friend so that her boyfriend will know she met someone. So my fiend took a picture with her. Gosh, it’s weird. We all talk to pur friend but she said she was just being kind.

2nd, this weekend my orgmate and friend Alvin rented 7 vcds for us to watch at home. Two out of 7 are Moments of Love and The Lakehouse. These stories have something in common. The story is about two people coming from different time yet they were able to fall in love because of some means of communication. How can it be happening?

Do weird things kill?
Sometimes I feel sick when I couldn’t find answers to questions.
It tears my heart when no one wants to answer my question and they pretend not to remember the question I asked.
It makes me cry when I can’t answer question when everybody has.
What’s with questions anyway? They need answer.

Novemberrific

2007-11-28T19:02:00.000-08:00

This month of november has given me a jam packed of events, appointments, bonding and activities.
So it won’t be wrong to have this blog as a diary of what’s been happening to me that made me extra extra busy, not to be included are those school work matters.
Attention I’m not a showbiz personality that made me busy, I’m just doing all my responsibilities the best way I can.

First, I love my org. UP Math-Physics Society.
UP Math-Physics Society celebrated it’s 32nd year of existence last Nov. 19 in the pursuit of promoting Math and Physics interests not only in the school but even outside – Baguio-Benguet in particular. We celebrated our anniversary by means of a swimming party to build camaraderie among the members of the present and even the past.
Thanks to all the alumni who went.

A day after we went swimming the BOD’s and some friends of the alumni and the alumni themselves feed our hunger at Gerry’s Grill SM Baguio, and then sing our hearts out at Quantum, bid goodbye to ate Kez at Victory Terminal and had a sweet rest inside the cinema where Sir Dennis paid the ticket. FYI: We watched : ONE MORE CHANCE. And I comment : “Hindi lahat ng Filipino romantic movies ay corni.” I actually love this movie. Thumbs up. I quote: “Sana ako na lang, sana ako na lang ulet..=)” hihi.

Then November 19 we released our CONVERGENCE, the first newsletter and official publication of Math-Phy all over UP faculty, our chance who by theway is also our founder, the Orgs and the members. We have to our exhibit in front of the galeriya which I have not seen because my friends and I were scheduled to have our grad. Pictorial that same day in the afternoon. The pictorial lasted for almost 4 hours. Whew.

November 24. The BOD’s again attended the 10th Regional Elimination (PMO) at SLU-Baguio. It was the first time I entered their school. People who saw us thought we’ll be competing for our schools because we were all wearing our MathPhy jacket but we just came there in the request of our adviser Ma’am Vel.

November 25. I just have a great bonding with some of my orgmates: jessa+aldrin+Alvin+carl. We had our coffee bonding, play games at Quantum and sing again at Quantum. As in 1 text and we all meet already.

I have learned a lot from my friends and orgmates. The some learning thoughts I have already shared, some I may be shared to you soon but there are also some that has to be kept as a secret or private.
FYI: more pix at my multiply though most of my photos are private that you must invite me first with your multiply. www.khenlee.multiply.com xiao

i want to grow up fast..

2007-11-26T00:49:00.000-08:00

I want to grow up as quick as possible.
Here are the reaons why:

I want to graduate already and find a job.
I want to be self dependent already.
I want to work to Manila na.
I want to have everything I want to have with my own.
I want to travel.

I'm serious. I want the day to pass as if everytime I open my eyes it's a brand new day. That each brand new day will bring something better. That when I wake up I'll be better. I will be a better woman. Someone who's stronger and braver. I want to wake up knowing I'll find the people I love around me. I want to be successful.

I am so down. I just really don't know where to get the right medicine to cheer me up. I am always bothered since the day I've got news from my mom telling me about my dad's reaction when I ask for permission for our grad pictorial. He told her something for me "bakit ka pa magpapagrad pic gragraduate ka na ba?"

I ask for more friends' advice right after I received the news. They all give good advices. Jayson even told me to just divert my attention. No matter how I want to live by their advices I just can't. No matter how I want to think of other things, whenever I am reminded by that news I just can't help but to cry. One solution I found is to write about it. Whenever I'm down, I just write down what I'm feeling.
So I hope after I write all these things, I'll be okay.

It's hard to be happy when deep inside I'm broken.

God knows I never planned to not graduate on time. My friends told me, "tell you're dad, YOU ARE IN UP". But for my dad it won't be a good reason neither for me. It's all my fault, I'm so pasaway. But it's true too, that the subjects are incomparable to others. But he's firm to what he believes that every school are just the same. My God, I'm so pressured. For weeks already, I haven't called at our home. I'm afraid to talk with my dad and to argue with him. I just prayed and prayed so hard to God that one of these days my Dad will understand me. And we'll build the same relationship as before because admittedly, I am hurt.

Along with this, I want to thank all the people who are the best in my life. Tested to be loyal and true. my friends - mc, zy, janis, cha, and u_uel. And to my man, my guardian angel in earth, i love you honey.

until 3am

2007-11-15T21:36:00.000-08:00

He's back to me again and there's no single regret from me.

Jayson and I were burning the lines again from late midnight until 3am last Nov. 17.

We talked as if there's no morning anymore.

He opened the conversation, letting me know he misses me, he cried and everything's private.

I'm sure my bestfriends as well as my friends will be in such an awe if they'll know this, I just have to face and admit it because that's what I decided. And I know they know what's been happenning to me too about him this past few days.

I believe in him. I know that even if he turns quite mysterious all the time, only me understand what's inside of him.

He may look so different outside but I know what happens when he's all alone. And that's when I wanted to comfort him and let him know I believe.

May God bless my decision.

And for jayson, my hon, I'm happy.

loveyou=)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

new news for a new sem..

2007-11-10T20:56:00.000-08:00

I can say my vacation at Isabela was quite a rest for me. Imagine sleeping at 10-11 hrs a day, at last, because I haven't achieved it here in Baguio.

I voted for Barangay Officials. I don't wait for the result but I know my vote counts.

The night after I voted I went straight to Manila to meet my tita because they want to go to Baguio so I have to fetch them. I spent how many days there and too bad we were not allowed to go to Pampanga to meet my cousins and tita but I attended a costume debut party the day after. I'm not even allowed to go out so I haven't contacted my friends who were in Manila that time to at least bond with them. We just stayed in the house and play with the playstation, sing, read, eat, and sleep.. harhar//

So last sunday. Nov 4 we arrived here at Baguio. Aside from the places I have visited quite many times already here is the new site new for me - Botanical Garden!! hahaha=) how could I forget to drop by this place to think it was just right next to the Wright Park. hahaha// The day was really not enough to go by the other place like Camp John Hay and PMA (which I haven't visited yet still). Oh anyways, i miss them. The typhoon Kabayan came late at night but at the same time they have to go home because Kenipearl have her class already that day after.

NEW SUBJECTS.
Due to the typhoon, our enrollment was moved.
Glad all my crs subject were accepted so I have my 6 MATH SUBJECTS for this sem equivalent to 18 units.
M134+M198+M136+M124+M121+M132. The course title, that I don't remember. hehe=)
NEW CHALLENGING MATHS for this sem.
God bless me and my loving friends.

NEW CHURCH.
My friend Cha invited me to the Catholic Church where she use to attend the mass every sunday. The PINK SISTERS church. The choir their really sings well. I was just sitting right after them. The church so cute, I love to take pictures to let you see how wonderful I saw there but I just don't.

NEW DEVICES.
Got a new memory card for my phone so I can download now more mp3s.
A new USB for me, just 1G though, but it's big already. And I love the color, perfect for me. hehe
A new Bluetooth device. la lang..

NEW EXPRESSION.
xo = hugs & kisses. Got it from PBB2 megan young.

NEW PICTURES.
The halloween's costume debut party, Trick or treat at the mall(video), My tita's Baguio treat, Our enrollment + a bonus of myself vain pictures are all in my Multiply account. You can add me anytime just give me a message. http://www.khenlee.multiply.com/

The Recycle Bin

2007-11-07T21:54:00.000-08:00

It just came to my thinking..

why do some people still keep files on the RECYCLE BIN?

They keep those there so that they could restore it anytime they would need the file again.

I think sometimes, we just have to fully delete those files on the recycle bin.

In that way you would not need to argue to yourself and your heart wether to restore it again.

And yet, if you need that same file again you won't need to get it from the recycle bin because first of all you have deleted them before.

Save the same file again. Save it with a new file, changed and maybe something better.

The file you have deleted is now the same file you have saved and choose to save your whole lifetime for.

It is now better than the one you have deleted..

on semestral break//

2007-10-16T00:33:00.000-07:00

time for rest from stressful exams and hard working 1st semester..
Be out of these online matters for 2 -3 weeks maybe.
See you pretty soon=)
Gonna miss everybody here.
Be missing my friends: zy+janis+cha+mc+u_uel

Hello family for me=)

My Math-Phy's Jacket back and an apology!!!

2007-10-12T19:04:00.000-07:00

yipee..
too sad last night when I left my Math-Phy jacket at the internet cafe. I almost texted all my friends just to know what's the landline number of the cafe. Early this morning, I went straight ahead at the Internet Cafe to check if they've seen it. They gave it to me.. Thank you=) Because I said that when they didn't give it to me, I'll never be their avid client, but they did..

Well, sinusulit ko talaga mag net before going home kasi I want to take more rest when I'm home bago sumabak ulet sa 2nd sem where we'll do researches and defend them na=)

So, here's a blog for a day.. This goes all sa mga galit galitan saken..

I really don't know, I'm easy to get angry but now not anymore because I'm taking everything as maturely as I can because my God, we're big enough to act like kids. Yet, once a scar always a scar. People I have arranged my conflict with didn't seem to have the same relationship as before - friend and ex's like that.. I would always love to think na lang for myself that when someone envy something from you no matter how close you are to each other, once there is some arguments, they would easily get angry to you. Prove me wrong though..

I am over the childish way of fighing enemies and I admit I am getting mature each day and each trial passed. I know for myself too when the conflict's fault was from me. At first we all know that as much as we want, we'll always defend ourselves proving everyone that we are always the right one. But one must always give way, the mature ones do.

We don't have to always prove someone that you're better than they are. You just have to prove to them that you'll survive in every world's challenge. One big enemy came from ourselves, and that is PRIDE. Pride is one of the 7 cardinal sins if I'm not mistaken.

Yesterday should always be a yesterday. Let's all grow..

For those people I have done wrong,
For those who have hurt me,
For those who hate me,
For those who envy me..

I AM REALLY SORRY. I mean this apology.

I am hoping for a nicer look whenever we cross paths. Babye to those mataray looks. And I would like to correct those people who had an impression to me that I'm snobbish. I am not actually, I just have a poor eyesight so I don't know when someone's familiar coming in front of me enabling me to react late.

God Bless be with us all=)

I need a good zzzZZZZzzz

2007-10-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

This is just unbeatable, from last monday until today (Oct. 9-12 2K7), I have not yet achieved a good hour sleep and I think I won't be able tonight because my friends planned to sleep over the house so we can do our take home exam at math181 and we rented a vcd yesterday for tonight. .

From tuesday until yesterday, my math exams were taken.

the president and the vice

Today, my co-BODs(Board of Directors) of Math-Phy attended a seminar of the Mathematical Society of the Philippines. We assisted the organization, participants, took dose of pictures and eat a lot=) hehe=) A big thanks to the MSP people for a great treat today (lots lots of food and we didn't take for granted what we crave for). Yet, I didnt save anything today since I'm celebrating for myself great work while exams were there.. Treat yourself you know....me with sis oda at Mang's restaurant. MSP BOD's treat.

This was really a tiring week.. But I'm Happy=) Be home soon, and told my mom already over the phone that I'll just sleep and sleep and sleep when I get home. She agreed, which means I'm exempted to whatever they wish to ask me=)

+I need a sleep..+

Lay-out changed!

2007-10-10T23:22:00.000-07:00

Got an exam for 3 consecutive days and it's really losing my energy each day..
Far from what we wanted to appear on some of our finals didn't happen, we all prayed for a "copy-paste" final examination yet our profs are just too masipag that they gave us an exam which has most of its part proving..

Proving is quite not our line though but slowly we're loving it. It's everyone, not in the field of mathematics, wouldn't expect us doing=) I hope we'll get along with it because we'll be dealing more of it as long as our school life does not end..

And.. because of this consecutive days of math exams, we had no chances to watch tv programs, bet our housemates misses us since we're sleep at afternoon till midnight and alive at 12:30am.. How was that for a student? Feels like we're working and gaining riches for our overnight payment at work=) haha=)

Misses my sibblings terribly, going to see them soon, as well as my high school friends.. what do you think would they love to have when i'm back? tag me soon=)

Changed lay-out:

Said "ba-bye" to my old template since it feels like so chummy, and duh duh! I'm not getting younger.. Now love the lay-out, I'll edit it some time if I'll find some good add-ons... Love my lay-out, simple and organized.. Black will do for the color and a little add-ons to know this is really mine=).. Feel free to comment, I would appreciate it...

Just my Luck

2007-10-04T20:08:00.000-07:00

Do you believe in luck?

ahm, no matter how I get busy this month, It seems to me that October is my Luckiest Month for this year.
First, I got a free jollibee treat from a Coca-Cola crown!! Claimed it and ate there with my friend Zy.
Second, I never expected I'll get high score at my 3rd Long exam at Math 130.
Finally, yesterday was Beta Sigma Fraternity Anniversary, they're super rich organization. They have treated everyone in the UP Baguio World for a free mane at Manang's Mane and add to those free nuts they even included prizes on it. I'm so lucky to get a free load tag!!! When I claim the priza, they converted it to a cash prize since they ran out of smart prepaid cards. Thanks anyway=)

Just my luck.. =) Thank God=)

Classes over, hello final examinations for me and my friends naman=)

Finals Schedule

2007-10-02T21:51:00.000-07:00

Should have been busy but I just can't get enough of this blog thing..

My finals schedule, a real hell half month for October.

October:

2 - 3rd long exam for Math 113 (Differential Equations)

4- 3rd long exam for Math 140 (Topological Structure)

5- final output for Math 130

5- final paper for PI100

5- final take home exam for PI100

8- final take home exam for Physics 103.1

9- final examination for Math140

10- final examination for Math130

11- final examination for Math120

12- Mathematical Society of the Philippines Seminar

16 - final examination for Math113.

Beat that!!!

Statistic QUiz Show..

2007-09-29T01:12:00.000-07:00

Department of Mathematics

In Cooperation of the UP Math-Physics Society

presents the StatisticQuiz Show.

Open to all Freshmen bonafide student of UP Baguio

uhwow, far from what we prepare, only few came to join this contest. Maybe because of delayed posting of teasers for advertisement, or the lack of advertisements from the teachers of freshmen, or there was no incentive being offered by the profs (you know students..) or there's only few bright freshmen students nowadays considering there was a big increase on their tuition fees.. I'm not bitter you know, i just felt disappointed.
Anyways, the quiz show must go on..
Congratulations to the winners.
Congratulation to the 1st placer Kristin from ComSci, actually kung di lang nag announce si Sir Gilbert(who happens to be one of our alumni) she and her friend did not like to join.. buti na lang.. ngayon may cash prize ka.. Hope with you two guys (she and her friend were the top placers kasi) manalo ulet ang school to the regional i think.. They will be representing the school for the upcoming Philippine Statistics Quiz Show!! woo..

Another event finished that's why Math-Phy went out again.. we play games and sing at Quantum=)
Vanessa, Melvin and I feed our hunger at Mang Inasal. Yummy foods there promise + unlimited rice.. hehe so sulit=)

For now, I have my top three restaurants:

1. Teriyaki Boy
2. Tokyo Tokyo
3. Mang Inasal

yumminess!! hehe=) indulge yourself..

2007-09-19T17:05:00.000-07:00

M140 MANIA:

M140- Topological Structure.

Sure the term looks so alien to those who were not in the Math World. Though I'm not supposed to discussed it here.. duh, I never want to either. Not that I don't love it, in fact, it's so interesting having to know something that not everyone in this world would know, it's just that it's amazing=) whee..

So, here was it.. My friends and I made a deal that whoever gets a higher score would treat us a banana cue. might seem so cheap but it's a lot of fun.. When we get the results of the first exam, Zy won, but neither of us passed.. Since there was no banana cue that time, we decided to pour over the chips and coke our depression

Janis was taking the picture here..

The day after, it's tagis lakas.. so we decided to still treat our depression while zy celebrates her birthday treat. Sleep-over at our apartment while watching WISHING STAIRS (where uel's making a wish too haha=)) and STEP-UP(where MC and Janis were arguing about the lead actor). Morning comes, we're still together. We watched CLICK(where Cha cried because she was touched by the story) and the we played cards.

MC's taking the picture here.

So there it was.. Life after all is like it.. At time you're happy, at times you're not.. Things learned: Don't let sadness break your life.. Happiness is a choice. Choose to be happy..

I've read in the STEP-UP vcd cover too: Every Second Chance, Takes A First Step! (wala lang..=)) So we still have chances to passed ryt?! well, hopefully.. haha=)

9th Lecture Series

2007-09-15T02:25:00.000-07:00

I was supposedly logging off the computer when I decided to post a blog. besides, I've been missing to document some oh so lovely events..

September 15 2007 (Today).

UP Math-Physics Society had a successful 9th Lecture Series held at UP Baguio Multipurpose Hall. Due to limited space, we apologize to those who did feel uncomfortable. We did not expect that over 200 participants will be coming. After the event, our alumni told me, that my number which was included on the invitation has 12 digits. Maybe, one of the reason why we haven't been receiving confirmation from other schools. We're really sorry..

Oh oh anyways, A BIG THANKS.

to the participants and their teachers=)
to the speakers and guests
to melvin for my closing remarks speech
to the MATH PHY family
to Ma'am Addawe, one great adviser=)
to the professors of UP-Baguio=)

like our new shirt=) with my sis ate louvee at the right pix=)

random

2007-09-10T01:17:00.000-07:00

welcome september! hehe=)
mc's getting old..
ate louvee's getting old..
The most important person in my life is adding one more year to her age and I thank God for that=)

Happy Birthday Mama!!!

I miss you so much=) sembreak's coming so we can share our secrets and craziest moments again along with sibblings=) I'll confiscate your phone so beware.. hahaha=) joke only..
ahm, looking forward for more years together=)

choices

2007-08-29T18:06:00.000-07:00

8 cHOiceS THat wiLL chANgE a wOmAn's liFe

1. To resist pain or use it.
2. To pursue wealth or grace.
3. To speak wisely or foolishly.
4. To value your time or fritter it away.
5. Live for self or the spirit.
6. Develop God's gift or waste them.
7. Persevere under trials or protest your life.
8. Stand for truth or abandon it.

-Jill Briscoe.

Just when we're researching for our math 130 paper. Janis, Mc, and I found ourselves cool with how to search for tagalog mathemattical terms. We have gone to other groupmate's house until I decided an overnight in my place again in order to finish it truly. But the research itself is much happier because we spent 1 hour st the national bookstore to copy some of the translations we found at the UP Diksyonaryong Filipino. Why does our school not have it in our library considering we're UP. Oh anyways, God must have seen our effort because while spending 1 hour inside the bookstore, MC found a max's plastic bag with food on it. She gets it and put it inside my bag. Wondering if that's only a trick, we're bursting into laughter all the way to the church where we attend a mass to our home, something like "Pinoy ikaw nga?" like that hehe. cool experience. unbeatable=)

I've learned na once you experienced something or whatsoever that caused you pain, you must promise things to yourself and promise too that you will do it. I've gone to many of it though and renew them everytime the experience calls for it. Nung una, I promised I won't let issues like other girls to destroy the next relationship I have. To realize now, it's not my fault. I believe in that because I've been studying myself and how I handle my relationship. Here's my promise:

Let go of the things that weaken us. We don't deserve things that weaken us. We need things that make us feel how important we are and things that will help us boost our self confidence. That we are Lord's real wonderful creation.
There will always be someone out there who deserves us. So let go of the thought that there will be no one. We deserve to be happy so why cling on those people who we don 't deserve.
Listen. Listen to people around you. They think normal than you do especially on situation when you are too blind to see what's happening.
Love yourself. Don't lose it. It's your biggest weapon. Your being smart will go a lot farther because you let other people see that you can live you life the way you want it - happy, stronger and better.

According to Jill briscoe again, to her book I found in Booksale entitled "8 choice that will change a woman's life":

"You can choose to have a life that is happy, blessed, and pleasing to God.

These qualities are within your grasp, but you will have choices to make.

IT'S UP TO YOU!"

growing up

2007-08-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

And so I was reviewing when suddenly I was able to realize and figure out some growing up features in my life.. not physically errr..

WATCH ME GROW..

People get mature. I grow. Suddenly I realize I'm not getting any younger anymore. One of the best growing up features of me where I learned from my immaturity concerns my sensitivity about people talking behind my back or whisphering things in front of me whether they were talking about me or not, I felt it's me.

I remember one time when I was totally annoyed to some people because I knew they were talking behind my back.. there was always that feeling, you know.. I always wished for one thing during those moments and that is to have the power . I was visualizing myself to be super rich girl so that I can have all the power above them. I'll kidnapped them, make them plead for apology, etc.. Harshness like that..

Now, I am not that anymore. You can talk right in front of me, make tsismis, try to annoy me, make me insecure, etc, enumerate them, and I DON'T CARE! Why the need to mind you anyway? Duh duh! You'll never succeed on destroying me just like that. I HAVE GROWN STRONGER AND BRAVER. I would not mind those things because I am never afraid of anything I did. I am never afraid to commit and admit my mistakes. The best thing is I learned from them.

Here are some changes my friends and I observe to myself:

Less talk. I became less makulit, less noisy, and all the kaingayans are, no more! Maybe because of stress or lately some problems I encountered. Or maybe I am just growing old. Admit it! There is peace in silence.

Less insecure. I never get insecure that much these days already because I never have to. Remember this! There is no reason to get insecure as long as you believe in yourself that God made you in such a wonderful way. I believe in that!

Less tsismis. haha yes, to stop people getting mad too to me. I mean if I were to live my life the way I want it, sure thing they were living their life too in what they think is right and sufficing them right?! So let them live.

Those are some of the things which are decreasing, lessening, deteriorating, and would maybe dissolve. I became more God fearing. I have a good Lord with me. I fear no one because of Him.

Power is not all for rich people.. I am powerful because I have a powerful God with me..

math phy newbies

2007-08-13T01:15:00.000-07:00

tomorrow exam na namen sa topology.. at nagdecision akong magblog muna bago ang todo review kasi in the first place, I don't feel like reviewing.. first, nacancel yung exam, it was supposed to be last week pero dahil sa bagyo, walang clase and sumaya naman ako nun kasi pagod pa aco from report sa m130. Soo far, i'm happy naman kasi natapos din ang reporting na yun, 2 weeks ko din inayos ang ppt na presentation namen considering hirap mag input sa computer ng mathematical formulas diba? nalungkot din kasi i'm not satisfied kasi yung report namen parang review lang ng prereq nung subject na yun, review lang ng calculus series.. duh duh wala tuloi akong bagong nalaman..

napapagod na ako sa sunod sunod na puyatan at sa overloading na requirements sa iba't ibang subjects.. report, exam, and org meetings.. huhuayy.. don't give up khen..tinatamad nanaman aco, at takot akong umatake nanaman ang katamaran.. buti na lang tapos na ang interview namen sa applicants, hirap din maging head ng membership comm. and vice pres at the same time. Last August 11, applicants night namen kaya puyatan syempre.. congrats sa newest 19 members ng math-phy. Thank you sa lahat ng alumni na dumating din.. --

alumni:

+kuya gbo+kuya mark+kuya dion+ate eunika+ate meech+

+ate nympha+arcee+at si ate faith+

from 39 who passed the applicantion form to 31 who were interviewed to 23 who appeared for the meeting to 19 who made it until the finals night, congrats:

+jeny anne+quantum+jan+fronimarc+alvin+

+buddy jenifer+karmela+april+ate louvee+jenilyn+angelica+eduard+

+philip+kerry+jane+karen+arlyn+mia+

ayun, random thoughts ulet.. sorry sa lahat ng tao na hindi ko na napapansin dahil super busy lang talaga acoh ngayon.. sabi kasi ni chaz di na raw acoh nagpaparamdam.. trinatry ko naman.. halos lahat na nga ng kabatch ko, busy na din.. narealize co lang habang tumatanda, aco personally though I hate to admit it, e parang nalelessen yung times when I want to tell stories now and then, hehe.. I admit at times I just want to be alone but then I don't know what I want to do. Samantala dati, I'm the laugh of the circle, parang I love making people happy. Ngayon.. ewan.. I choose my friends pa ren naman but then I'm not adding them na.. contented na aco sa kanila.. sorry talaga, busy lang kahit kay boyfriend co busy pa din.. pero mahal co kayong lahat.. sa sembreak, resbak tayo sa stressors alright!! aja!

please help vote Carl Guevarra too sa Coca-cola ride top fame. He's a friend of my close friends and a schoolmate too..

stressors..

2007-08-06T17:57:00.000-07:00

stressors..

let me stress this.. hahaha.. no, last saturday I experienced what my nurse friends call CBC - Complete Bed Rest. Uhwhy? Got really sick.. I'm not joking. I texted my nurse friends to asked for help, my mom and my ate claire who was currently taking up her board exam (Go3 guys!). Thanks for those concerned people. Uh oh, looks like stress is winning the battle this time.. I thought I could have reviewed for my topology exam on thursday. This week for sure we'll be busy again.. The pain of being a senior. pero masaya naman kahet papano, I have all my friends to back each one of us.. mwuahness..

like to share with you our previus picture when we decided one time to have our group review a night before our Math130 1st LE:

scripted picture , para at least effective daw..

ayan, pag-gising ko ng 2am silang 3 na lang gising out of 7 kame nagrereview.. ginagawa nila? cardrs!! wew

Random pix I took out of nothing..

Introducing Charie, my friend.. kyut kyut na kasi this day.. parang child.. ayan..

Math-Physics payatot sisters @ the pond during an interview..

wew, sa wakas tapos na ren ang interviews!
Out of 31 interviewed, 23 ang tumuloy kahapon who says tuloy sila sa applicants night..

I'm ok now.. inside and out.. haha.. God is good, all the time.. wag ng mag-interes ang iba, akin lang si papa jay.. haha=)

my jollibee

2007-07-30T01:18:00.001-07:00

The day i met my jollibee..

wee, I don't want to possess Jollibee for me only.. I admit I really want to have a picture with Jollibee since I was a kid but then end up with his statue..*sigh* This was just an event happened last saturday July 28. My orgmates and I spent the whole day at the school dedicating our time for the interview of our applicants. There were 39 applicants, 6 applicants were scheduled for interview that day. We were really exhausted but still would like to manage a smile=) Anyways, after the interview, I decided to treat myself at the Jollibee while waiting for the 6pm mass at the Cathedral. I decided to eat at the nearest Jollibee at the Cathedral where there were only few who were eating that time. I almost forgot that I wanted a kiddie meal that time so I end up eating a regular meal. While writing something on our logbook on my seat, suddenly Jollibee appear. I was really suprised. He waves at me and I obviously wave back. whew! seems like all my stress were gone during that time. I felt my childhood happiness came back that very moment. The Jollibee walked behind me to have a picture with a kid seated beside me. He then returns and called my attention again. And so I asked him "would you like a picture of us?" He nods. And so I grab my phone, stand even when most of the customers were looking on me and take a shot. Here's the first shot:

I let Jollibee see the shot, I told him "ay putol, another?" He nods. This is the final shot:

wee.. my Jollibee.. love ko talaga sya till now, "Sa Jollibee, bida ang sarap!"
Napag-isip lang ako, who's inside Jollibee, kasi after we took our picture he went back to their quarters.. Crush nya kaya ako? hehe.. to think I'm so big to be mistaken as a kid kahet admit ko I look young=) hehe.. joke lang=)
I love you Jollibee. Definitely you complete my day=) =)

gaya ng dati

2007-07-18T04:23:00.000-07:00

Dati-rati
Laman ng puso mo ay ang pangalan Ko
Lagi Ako sa isip mo
Dati-rati
Inaawitan pa labi ay may ngiti
Mga mata’y nagniningning
Ngunit ngayon nagbago ka
Nasa’n na ang init ng pagsinta
Pangako mo’y hindi magwawakas
Di ba’t noon
Samyo ng bulaklak at ihip ng hangin ay kapansin-pansin
Di ba’t noon takbo ng oras ay di mo napapansin
Laging naglalambing
Ngunit ngayon naglaho na
Sigla’t tamis ng iyong pagsinta
Pagmamahal Ko ba’y kailangan pa
Ooh
Dati-rati
Mga pangako Ko’y kandungan mo’t lakas
Sa pagsubok ay kay tatag
Di ba’t noon
Sa kaibigan mo’y Akong bukambibig
Bakit ngayo’y anong lamig
Di mo alam Ako’y nasasaktan
Sa di pagpansin sa Aking pagmamahal
Lumapit ka’t Ako’y naghihintay
Naghihintay, ohh
Ako’y nasasaktan
Sa di pagpansin sa aking pagmamahal
Lumapit ka’t ako’y naghihintay
Di mo alam Ako’y nasasaktan
Sa di pagpansin sa Aking pagmamahal
Lumapit ka’t Ako’y naghihintay
Panginoon
Ako’y nabulag ng mandarayang mundo
Ako ay patawarin Mo
Mula ngayon ang buhay kong ito’y
Iaalay sa Iyo gamitin mo ako
Gaya ng dati
Gaya ng dati
Gaya ng dati

>>I fear no one because I am God's.. I encourage everyone to take a change. Take a step nearer to him!

first sem fever

2007-07-06T23:45:00.000-07:00

..hi guys! my last entry here was after my birthday and I don't know what more to share to you since i've been so busy in school, add to that my organization stuffs.

well well well, let me start with the enrollment day. The last enrollment was so far the longest enrollment i had. I was supposed to go back to Isabela after the enrollment but due to some katamaran and kapaguran factor of me, I opted not to go home. and so I haven't gone home since summer.. yes yes yes.. oh oh, but I miss my little sister jang jang kasi everytime we talked on the phone she keeps on asking me "ate, tapos na ba enrollment mo?" aww.. until now she keeps on saying that and I don't know how to make a comforting response..

yuhoo, bonding with my friends again sa school! lalo na ngayon kasi we don't have GE courses anymore, that's why lage kameng magkakasama. Out of my 5 math majors ngayon, lagi na lang same faces kame.. angas.. hahaha=p

uhwait, Harry Potter 5 will be showing on July 11! yes, ganda pa ng date ng opening.. pero i will not watch on it's showing, i know madame.. and i hate crowds.. hahaha=0 artistahin ang lola.. hahaha=0

i watched on tv the opening of the 17th UAAP hosted by UST. Nice opening.. galing galing! Go growling tigers and my ever fighting Maroons=p fight fight fight..

FYI: Due to my picture addiction, I have my multiply account already. Though I don't add contacts who are not familiar with me, you can view it=p www.khenlee.multiply.com

Best friends..

2007-05-25T23:51:00.000-07:00

collage pics from our May 25, 2007 trip//

kc every friday afternoon, we jog around up diliman campus, pero one round lang tas bonding na after..

e since tapos na ang summer, last friday wala na kameng klas, si grech na-exempt sa finals(ang galing=)) so we decided to meet at 5am at ccp.

well, late sila hehehe=p but it's really okei kasi nasulit naman ang umaga. we just have 2 rounds jogging in front of the ccp and 1 hour to do aerobix.

then we went walking at baywalk en eat. sulit!

wew, ang sarap ng pakiramdam..

Grech en mike, thanks for being close to me.. You are one of the best friends I have in the whole wide world. Mamimiss ko kayo. Don't fade!

flowers en kisses

2007-05-23T02:53:00.000-07:00

summer class is over..

what with these flowers? aww.. i love to tell the story.

"It was after my 3rd exam in Physics. As usual
Honey promised to pick me up after the exam in school. so I waited for him until
past 7pm. The problem is the phone lines. we weren't able
to hear our voice text with each other kasi laging busy ang
voicechat. duh. I wasn't able to load too kasi super inis na ko. tas, i received
a text from him asking for sorry kasi hindi nya ako nasundo. Super shock ako
kasi nandun pa ko nun sa school. at least naman sana he told me earlier. so I
rode a jeep right away while i was still super irritated maybe because I was so
frightened by the environment. He called me while I was in the jeep en when I
reached home yet I was still not ready to accept his apology.
naman..
So, we made a deal. The deal was pag nauna ako sa
meeting place ng batch tuwing linggo sa araneta, he wouldn't be able to see me
na all through out the day. Sunday morning, syempre nagpatagal tagal pa ako sa
galaw ko kasi i know lagi syang late. duh, syempre ayoko syang malate naman..
hehehe=p yet, I still made it at 9am sa dunkin kasi bawal talaga ang late sa
batch kung hindi sya ang manlilibre. ayoko nga.
I was super tense kasi no single classmate i saw there.
si grech went to fetch mylene en afterwards decided na diretso na sila ng
greenhills en dun na kame hintayin. Mike, on the other hand told me beforehand
that he was already at the araneta en just strolling around. The thing is when I
texted mike, he told me na nawawala daw sya, so sinundo ko sya sa NBS sa dati
naming pinagmeetan sa kanila pero a minute after he texted me na nakita na nya
ang way so bumalik na lang ako sa dunkin donuts. Hindi talaga kame nagtetextan ni jason after the call the night before.. Well they're super tagal so i
smell something kakaiba. I thought, hon talked to mike to wait for him just to
assure me kunwari that he was not late para nga naman effective ang
excuse.
To my surprise, I saw mike approaching my seat. He was
carrying these flowers and I was thinking "wow mike, mukhang manliligaw na kay
grech?" hehe.. I was shocked, he gave the flowers to me en told me a child told
him to give it to me. I did not believe him at first, talagang I don't even
plan to read the message there. Mike insisted that I have to read the card. It
was written there "Hon sowie na po.." wee=p and then Jason appear from
somewhere, I don't remember where he was from anymore not when I saw he bought
water from 7eleven. wee=p aww..
When I asked mike, he told me, Jason planned it the
night before. They meet at 830, pero natagalan lang sa pagbili ng flowers.

I really never expected this kind of apology kasi all I
ever wanted was for hon to get to place earlier than the time I'll be arriving..
sweet thing! I appreciated it so much talaga.. love
you hon!"

anyways, my pleasure to thank my friends who became a big part why summer had been so much fun and all worth it!

>>from Baguio, my orgmates en new friends en friends really.

>>from Manila, those who really give an effort to see me, my highschool friends. Thanks for the promises not broken especially mikel en grech.

Super super mega thanks sa Hon ko.. wee=)

I love you all!

why do women cry?

2007-05-20T19:30:00.000-07:00

Why do Women Cry?

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he asked God. He said, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:

" When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

when she cries

2007-05-15T19:20:00.000-07:00

In 2 weeks, I'll be back in Baguio. Summer class is near to end. I guess I did what I can for my subjects. I had summer en classes en I enjoyed it. That's the most important thing, to live, love and laugh. I'll be missing summer en one thing I realized, I never regret it en never will I be regretting it. I'll be missing my friends en the most important guy in my life..

What will stay in Manila? my heart//

When She Cries >> Restless heart

The road I have travelled on
Is paved with good intentions
It's littered with broken dreams
That never quite came true
When all of my hopes were dying
Her love kept me trying
She does her best to hide
The pain that she's been through

CHORUS:
When she cries (she cries) at night (at night)
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries (she tries) to hide (to hide)
All the fears she feels inside
So I pray (i pray) this time (this time)
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

She's always been there for me
Whenever I've fallen
When nobody else believed
She'd be there by my side
I don't know how she takes it
Just once I like to make it
Then there'll be tears of joy
To fill her loving eyes

CHORUS:
When she cries (she cries) at night (at night)
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries (she tries) to hide (to hide)
All the fears she feels inside
So I pray (i pray) this time (this time)
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

So I pray this time (this time)
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

summer updates

2007-04-30T23:15:00.000-07:00

I guess i am having the best of my summer..

Classes.

Got a physics 73 class from 7-930am m-f. What makes it hard for me is the transportation from paranaque to diliman. so after every classes I'm spending so much time first to hang inside the campus with my friends mike en janis en eny friends i'll meet around. I rejected the idea that I'll stay in the dorm this summer or on my bestfriend's apartment. Well, my tita's very accomodating in fact she does my laundry.

Reunion.

Yep, sometimes I really make it a point to see my friends i haven't seen for long. Got friends in Diliman who I haven't seen too for years. During my enrollment we saw each other en do the usual chikahans en tawanans. kakamiss=)

Gimmicks.

A lot! I'm just finding time to relax but it looks like I've got too many time doing these things. In fact, just yesterday I was in antipolo with my honey, we went swimming with his tito's en their workers.

Dates.

My favorite part of my summer. hehehe=) Things were sometimes meant to keep in private. I don't like telling them all to you now considering I don't trust readers that much. I hope you do understand.

Have a happy summer too!
Love lots!

final examination

2007-03-29T23:53:00.000-07:00

Oh yes, everyone is sort of telling us why we're still @ Baguio..

Do I have a choice?

It's still our finals week. My last exam will be on Monday, the 2nd day of April..

My friends told me to go home soon, and yes I'll go home as soon as Monday night.

Not so much excited though knowing how hot the climate at Isabela.

I can feel sweat week coming.

Today, Baguio seems so hot too..

summer's really around.

tell me more of what do you plan this summer?

comment box not yet activated but I'll do it when I get the time.

Summer Vacation or Summer Classes

2007-03-18T20:01:00.000-07:00

Summer or no summer for me?

Probably, I am planning to enroll for a summer class this time.. I've been missing it for 2 years for the simple reason that I don't ask for a permission to my parents.

Now, I'm definitely not wanting to miss it. I told my parents already even during the christmas vacation. My dad was the last one to agree but definitely says 'yes'.

I would never really want to miss the summer class. My friends told me that summer classes are stressful as they experienced it, but why be afraid? I have enjoyed summer vacation for 2 years and I felt so guilty too. Maybe, if I just have taken summer for those years, I'll probably make my course loads less heavier. Still have more units to go, but with summer I'll hopefully be on time for graduation next year. I would like to graduate by 2008, aside from it's UP Centennial Year, I am eager to have good work after too.

See you @ UP Diliman this summer for me!

teen blog

2007-03-16T02:23:00.000-07:00

how was that?

In the pursue of gaining friends online through sharing the same or even the opposite thoughts, I tried to (sort of) advertise my blog.

You guys, support me=) A big Thanks here!

And my blog would like to say hi to all of you!

the right man..

2007-02-28T00:43:00.000-08:00

When will love arrive?
Who will be mine?
Love is never something youplanned.
In fact, it starts from yourself.
You won't quickly grab a relationship thinking it might be love and ended it with the usual romantic movies heartbreaks or the likes.
You don't get in to a relationship expecting to fill it with the standard love stories.
You don't get in a relationship to display and to easily changed and feel like a child again.

Someday, somewhere, someone will come..
No matter what circumstances, a true love will come..
When it happens, make a difference.
To follow standards means everyone is looking for the same person you are also looking.
And so, who will end up with that man?

18th AMPIQS and after..

2007-02-12T00:31:00.000-08:00

Last Feb. 10, we celebrated another year for the society's big event every year, the Annual Math-Physics Interschool Quiz Show(AMPIQS) wherein representatives of competing school within Baguio-Benguet joined. There were 16 schools who accepted our invitations. Last year was BCNHS (Science Class) moment but this year was BCNHS(Regular), though all schools were really good and competitive! Thanks to all! Wish to see you next year, I guess I'll be the chairman of the event next year=)

my pose! ganda ng jackets namen no? with this year's chairman Ate Kez

The Winners of the team Category BCNHS (Regular)

Pix after the event then boating...

...then we go on boating after(BOBOY 558 reigns here), then bowling(BOBOY128 naman dito). Oh my, I'll surely miss 4th year's this year, we became close so far..
Thanks to everyone! A toast for our victory again here!

Almost there..

2007-02-02T22:39:00.000-08:00

I was on a christmas vacation when I decided to register for the upcoming elections this 2007.

I registered with a friend. There were no long lines that day. We were just 4 in the Office.. My friend's teacher on highschool works in the comelec so we have to chat with her first.

While filing up the application, I encountered one serious problem. I don't know my father's middle name! I am not suppose to tell the whole story here, but my father left me when I was 6. I knew they(my parents) talked about it before it happened but without our consent considering we were still young that time. Oh anyways, since the Comelec doesn't accept incomplete application, we decided to report that my father already died. I agreed with that so to finish my application. After encoding the infos on my application, writing my signature and taking my fingerprints and photo on the computer, they talked with me about that matter. We're not really close but I don't close open talks. So much Q and A. I told them that if my father would like to see me or not it's fine with me after all I am contented with my family now(I'm with my mom and my stepdad). They are happy to hear my answer but still they insist to find my father. There was this certain VOTER'S SEARCH on their computer that finds people in the Philippines who were registered at the COMELEC. They asked some facts about my father, I told them every little thing I know. To my surprise, they found the name and the location where my father is registered to vote. There was the address, all the complete info's he maybe, had put on his file. But I did not mind. It was a dilemma. Should I get his address or not? If I do I am afraid of what reactions will I get from my mom and my stepdad families considering I grew up on my stepdad's. I would really want to get the address, someone inside me wanting to get it, until I refused. Maybe it was notyet the right time. but when will it be? I miss my dad. I miss him so much. I knew I need his attention but I refused to get the way closer to him. I did not take the risk. I'm so sad I came to that decision but maybe God has more better plans for me. It was not God's decision I know, it's mine. But something tell me that we will still meet. Maybe not now but on the nearer future.. I'll wait for it until forever.

my my Monday..

2007-01-29T23:26:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the most tiring exams I have ever experienced!

First, my Math182(Introduction to Programming):
>>The class agreed that the extension of our Machine Problem will start at 7am to 12pm.. And yep, we woke up early even not so much enjoying the weather to have a good sleep (It was 10C here!!!). I spent 5 hours in front of the computer but still finding in the end that I failed to run the program. I had put all what I knew there but still I couldn't run the function program. If only Sir joel coordinates with our lecture prof.

Lastly, my Math122(Matrices)
>>Got an exam from 1pm until infinity! But we finished the exam at 5pm. My God, my problem set are only my source of review only to find out that it was not that easy either. I forgot the cryptography! Shocks! How I love decoding.. How could I forget that I couldn't multiply matrix 3x3 with 1x3. duh!!!

Ohmy ohmy..

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!Eunique turns 19!

2007-01-25T19:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTFRIEND: "Eunique"!!!

I'm glad I've found a best friend in you!